Hello
I looked into this a month ago but this is the first time for me to really start using it. You can call me Santana and I'll be 24 in a couple months. I really started to struggle once I started college and a saw a therapist for a couple years. I have never been diagnosed by a doctor but I know I have depression and anxiety, and probably some OCD. Five years ago I tried to commit suicide a few times due to a girl that was my 'friend' said I was the center of her problems, and that is when I started going to therapy until my counselor moved away. I tried finding another one, but she and I did not click. She made it seem that she was in it for the money and not to help people. Well, now I work at the same preschool the 'friend' does. At first it was okay but these last few months I've been seeing more of her and it's ruining my day and I just feel angry and irritable. Even though she acts nice at work, it's still a struggle to look past what she said 5 years ago. I guess I just need someone to listen and help me through all the things I'm going through because this is only the beginning. That's why I found this in the first place, I wanted someone new that doesn't know everything, maybe for a different perspective. I've always been an optimistic person but my panic attacks are coming back and I haven't had one in 4 years so it's hard to look at the bright side when my head is feels with doubt and darkness.
Hi @santanaruth619, it's nice to meet you! Glad you are here in this community - hope we can be useful to you ^^
Therapy is a tricky business. If you do not find the right person, it may often feel pointless and like a waste of your money. You sound like a self-aware and lovely human. I encourage you to not give up on yourself and keep trying to find the right therapist. It can make a huge difference in your moods, behaviour and attitude, and can equip you with a heap of useful coping skills. You are worth the search and all of the work you're putting towards your health.
We are always here for you if you want to chat or just vent your feelings. Hope you're having a great weekend.
Best wishes!
I want to thank you for the support. I actually was able to talk to that 'friend' before I moved away. Unfortunately, I'm dealing with something new and it's really putting me down. I got this nanny job last week and I just found out she scammed me 3000 dollars and not my bank has put my account on hold until I come up with the money to bring it out of a negative balance. So now I am broke and in debt, and jobless 6 days before rent is due. It makes me feel so stupid and I finally thought things were looking up and it is, sort of. I have an interview Monday but it still doesn't help my debt situation and the fact that I'm about to be put more in debt if I can't figure it out. I really just need to talk to someone about it because I've never been this scared.
Hi! I’m Jai, pronounced like Jay, I’ll be 24 in a few months too! I’ve struggled with depression since I was 13, but it didn’t really get to me until I started college. I totally understand where the panic and pain comes from within depression and losing friends. My best friend of many years drifted. We just weren’t the same people we used to be and we needed the space to grow separately but it made the biggest effect on us both because we looked at things negatively. Ultimately we really used the time apart to reflect on what was said and done and apologized for who we no longer were. I am so sorry your “friend” led you to believe you were the center of her problems. I’m glad I came across this post and it is so wonderful to virtually meet you! I don’t have many friends. Whenever they need me I’m always there but when I need them it’s like talking to the wind. I would love to support you and help you keep the optimism you have!
