Why Try?
I got in trouble becuase of my grades. My mom yelled at me. Let me work while critisizing me. Then 7 hours kater, dads home, making things worse. He'll say how I'm blaming them even when I say it's my fault. He keeps twisting my words and asking what my plan was, but I didn't have a plan. From the kid who hated getting below a 90, I'm failing. that perfect child I never wanted to be. I snapped. I asked my dad what his plan was when he cheated on my mom, multiple times. You could see he was just stumped. I asked what brilliant plan he had. Or if the devious plan was to get caught. My mom asked what I was saying and my dad escaped by saying I was blaming him. Yes. I'm blaming him for cheating. No, I'm not blaming him for my school. I told them I couldn't focus. But they said, "You're not trying. You're lazy. You could get there if you TRIED!!" Well I'm trying! I'm trying for a world I could live without. I'm trying while not understanding. I'm sick to my stomach and will probably cry a long time in the bathroom now. What's the use trying when it never matters?