Sad again
Just wanted to talk to someone, even if it's empty space. I'm willing to listen to you guys if anyone happens to stumble across this :)
I've been feeling really terrible again. It was good for a couple months, but now with the first semester of school coming to an end, I've been much more anxious and depressed than I have in the last couple months. My best friend is probably my ex best friend now since she dropped me for all her saxophone buddies, I never get to talk to her, and she talks smack about my bf. I feel like my section, the percussionists, don't really like me either... All these people act like they like me, but if it really came down to it, most would pick someone else. I'm just second place to everyone, the backup choice. I feel alone and tired and so sad and anxious all the time. I'm barely getting A's in so many of my classes, having a B in bio, the one class I actually like. I want to tell my bf this stuff, but does he really need to know, after all, we've only been dating a month, I don't want to burden him with my dumb problems. I just....need a hug. Thanks for listening, 7cups is always here when I need it :)
