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littleStrawberries1840
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Struggling but working on it



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Math and mothers
Student Support / by littleStrawberries1840
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 3 days ago
...See more I'm failing math. I'm a sophomore in a combined math class of algebra two and trig, and I'm failing miserably. The teacher scares me, he has a way of slightly berating student when they ask questions and doesn't explain very well. My parents keep yelling at and fighting with and punishing me for failing. I don't want to be failing, I just am. I'm not doj g enough to help myself, they say, my study habits and bad, they say. It's all true, but I don't sit around, actively trying to disappoint them. They keep telling me I'm going to be an adult in two years and need to start acting it. I'm scared.
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Numbness
General Support / by littleStrawberries1840
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 3 days ago
...See more I’m numb and empty inside. These past couple weeks, I’ve been experiencing waves of crippling anxiety and bouts of self harm. All of a sudden, all the voices in my head went silent. Now I just feel numb. There’s no anxiety or anything, I just feel empty inside. It’s less stressful than constant waves of anxiety but it’s a weird feeling.
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Panic attacks
General Support / by littleStrawberries1840
Last post
 February 12th
...See more I think I just had my first panic attack. I had opened up about feeling like my friends hate me to them and I started crying. They said they don’t hate me, but I couldn’t believe them. I just kept crying and the crying turned to hyperventilating. Then I couldn’t stop crying or catch my breath and it felt like I was suffocating. It was a bit scary, but I think I’m ok now.
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Mental health
General Support / by littleStrawberries1840
Last post
 February 9th
...See more My mental health’s been slipping lately and I can feel it. More anxiety and waves of overwhelming emotion along with a lot more clinginess. I’ve opened up to one of my two close friends about starting to self harm again, but haven’t really elaborated on anything else. I’m scared to continue talking to him. What if he doesn’t really want to talk to me and what if it’s burdening or annoying him? My other close friend doesn’t handle serious conversations well. The last couple times we’ve started more serious talking about more serious or personal topics, she cuts off the conversation or makes it a joke. I’m scared to talk to them, I don’t want to bother or burden, but I feel alone and I miss them and I want them to know I’m hurting. I’m not sure what to do.
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Self harm and guilt
General Support / by littleStrawberries1840
Last post
 February 9th
...See more My mental health’s been slipping and I recently started cutting. It’s my first time and it’s not deep but it’s a start. I feel so much anxiety and it knots in my stomach and makes me nauseous and numb and cutting helps ease the tension. My friend found out and he’s been so great about it and supportive, but I feel so guilty. It’s not his problem and now he’s stuck with helping me. He keeps telling me to confide in him and that he cares for me and doesn’t want me to hurt, but I want to stop confiding in him. I don’t want to drag him down with me. I feel so guilty and like a terrible person. I want to cut so badly, deeper than I have been, and cause real harm. I wanna confide in him so badly and let it all off my chest, but I choke up whenever I try to talk to him. I want to talk to him, but I feel like an attention seeker. Even cutting just feels like a pathetic way for a pathetic person to try and get attention. I don’t know what to do.
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Not feeling like I belong
Anxiety Support / by littleStrawberries1840
Last post
 January 13th
...See more I’ve been feeling a lot more anxious as of late. It was just the one year anniversary of my best friend of ten years falling out with me and her birthday just passed so that’s probably contributing. If you’ve seen my previous posts, you know how it went down. Ever since her, I’ve struggled with deeper emotional connections, vulnerability, and making/maintaining friendships. I just had a vulnerable moment and let my current trio in on some of this and I think I might have accidentally offended one of them. I feel really bad and told them I feel really bad about it and will think about this interaction and think they hate me for hours or days. They both said they don’t hate me and couldn’t hate me, but even in the way they said it, I feel like they hate me and are just hiding it. And if they truly don’t hate me, I feel like they should. I feel the anxiety pulsing and I desperately want to find a way to completely withdraw myself from both of them, but we’re heavily involved in the same programs and extracurriculars.
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My relationship with my mom
General Support / by littleStrawberries1840
Last post
 August 5th, 2024
...See more I feel so neglected by my mom. She's currently ignoring me since I'm "such a mean *** to her all the time." As an eldest daughter, she always vents and cries to me about her troubles like when her sister had to be watched since her meds made her want to off herself and when her brother was planning on offing himself. I'm a child, I can't handle that any better than you can. I told her I felt neglected and she got upset and said I can say what I want but she knows she's not neglectful. When I tried to tell her something and she didn't listen, I got upset about her not listening, and she yelled at me about how I'm the child and she's the parent and how she doesn't need to listen to me. My brother had the same situation of her not listening, and she apologized and soothed him. She's started taking my devices away at 930 pm (I'm using this one in secret), and she said she's no longer gonna try with me, she provides basic necessities and that's all she legally needs to do. She told me if I need rides, I can just walk. She wants me to walk two miles in peak heat tomorrow to get to my rehearsal. I feel like I'm only a child when she wants me to be, and I have to step it up and parent when she wants me to. I feel like a lot of my will to live is just gone...
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My mom
Relationship Stress / by littleStrawberries1840
Last post
 July 11th, 2024
...See more I’m not sure if this is the right subhead to post this on, but my relationship with my mom is under stress so I figured this was close enough. The last couple days, my mom’s been saying she’ll do things with me or telling me she’ll help me find something I’ve been trying to find, but she just doesn’t. Instead, she’s been playing video games with my sister. Driving practice, shopping for things I needed, helping me find something she said I could have. All these things are things she neglected to play video games with my sister. I love that game too, but she only plays with my sister since “she’s more fun to play against.” Once she decides to play with me, she’s too tired and will fall asleep midway through our game. I asked her today why she only plays with my sister and only asks my sister to play and she immediately got defensive, saying she hadn’t played with my sister in the last hour, but she had asked my sister to play and played multiple rounds with her before sending us away so she could play by herself. I brought up the last couple days where she’s only asked my sister, and she told me not to be jealous of her and that she knows my sister will always play with her, but I’m too grumpy to play. I feel as though this isn’t true and just her trying to defend herself. Am I looking too deep into it?
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