I hate myself
I have an inferiority complex. My self esteem is so low i just can’t believe any compliment, i can’t look at someone and not feel jealous if they have something that i don’t but wished i had, i can’t easily get over feeling inferior to someone. I feel really toxic and it’s been about a week or two since i realized why i was so salty over a lot of things. I have nothing and yet i know i have more than a lot of ppl out there so i shouldn’t be complaining, and yet my stupid egoist mind can’t help but just make me feel down The only person i trust is my gf, she’s the only one who can make me feel positive and i came to the point i know i wouldn’t have any will to live if she ever left me I hate being so egoist, i hate my body, i hate being different, having a different sexual orientation than most of my friends, i hate absolutely everything about me and wished i could torture myself in any way just to feel punished for being a piece of trash But i know i would never do that and i still have a hope...a hope that maybe i can slowly love myself more I don’t want to tell my parents about anything so i can’t afford actual therapy How can i love myself?
Holy crap.. I dont get jealous of anyone. If you're healthy then good for you i guess.. i dont know I just dont care. lol But this.. this message I love. I absolutely love this message. I dont know why.
@Seff1227 maybe i won't help you i know, but just contact me i wanna try to help you because even if you maybe won't believe it (i read all your posts) you're able to go through that, it won't be easy but you are capable of it, everyone is. please send message
@Seff1227 Hi, I am sorry to hear that you are not feeling well. I know that feeling like that can be difficult. Remember that you are not alone with that. Asking for help is a good way to start your healing. You deserve to be listened to without judgment.
@Seff1227 Hi ! I think that perhaps you need to wonder why you don't want to talk with your parents about this. I'd say, give them a chance. Parents, and I am one, would not want you to feel like this, and would want to help if they feel able to. Also, why would you hate your sexual orientation ? it is what it is... you don't choose it, you cannot change it, and what reason is there to want it to be the same as most of your friends' ? I think it is important to find peace with that. And perhaps you don't need therapy, but similarly oriented friends, local support groups or whatever. These exist.