Braces
️TW: sh and death ️
Recently I found out that I need to get braces. And since then I've been feeling awful. I've been struggling with undiagnosed depression for a while, and right now I was feeling happy with my life. After I found out, I couldn't stop crying no matter how hard I tried. It was the closest I've ever come to having a panic attack.
I know getting braces isn't a bad thing but I don't know why I'm not the same since I've found out. I don't think this is the root of my problems, though. I was shocked when I started crying uncontrollably because for a long long time I've not really cried. It sounds really weird to say so please don't judge but I feel like I found a way to suppress my emotions, and it worked for a while until now. I was able to act happy even if I was angry or upset and no one would know.
It's strange that this news rocked me so much because I used to be a very calm and controlled person, but now I feel like I'm losing my grip on things. For so long I've forced myself to be happy but now my paranoia and depression has returned as well as wanting to sh. I have violent thoughts and I want to end things sometimes, but my parents don't know any of this. I can't tell them but I don't know how else to share my feelings.
That's it I guess thanks for reading such a long post :)
@summerfleur It is important to express your feelings; do not be afraid to do so; others will not be offended. If you continue to suppress your emotions, you will eventually reach a breaking point.
Thanks for the advice! I know it’s best for me to talk to someone but it seems easier said than done. 😅
I’ve been thinking of going to a school counselor for a while now but I’m still thinking about it.
Apologies for the late reply, I’ve been very busy lately. :)
@summerfleur hey, its okay. your not alone and i’d encourage you to talk to someone about the way your feeling. i cant imagine how you must be feeling but what i CAN tell you is that braces are actually not as half bad 😃. just a little pain sometimes and you can eat whatever you want (even though my dentist said don't lol ) nothing happens so... ALSO YOU’LL COME OUT WITH CUTE TEETH AFTERWARD so maybe its worth it. this is my personal experience but sending you a-lot of strength and hope ❤️
Thank you for the support. It’s been a while now and it’s getting better. I still don’t like smiling in photos tho lol.
Hopefully you’re right. I wish I could talk to someone as well.
Sorry for the late reply, I’ve been very busy. :)
Sending strength and peace. @summerfleur
doesn't sound weird at all, I think I relate a bit because I am too a controlled, happyish person and I don't really cry that much even when horrible things happen and then I was crying at home depot because they took bad care of the plants, but probably because I just hadn't cried in a while. Waiting on the next one now, wishing you luck!