Thoughts

Hey, thanks for sharing. I know how it feels to believe that opening up will push people away, and it's not a fun feeling. However, people that really are supportive and care about you won't turn on you; they will try to understand you more in an effort to support you better. Opening up, although a difficult process, may end up helping you find the support you're looking for.

Fighting against irrational thoughts can be tough, especially if they are intrusive, but so long as you know and understand that there are people that care about you, you'll be closer to fending them off. Hang in there; you got this!

Sometimes you have to ignore the voices that you know are wrong and just try to connect and tell someone. Often, it really does help. But it does take bravery to do.

Do you want to plan out who you want to talk to here first?@jaxxym245

I know that it is pretty scary if you fear that she will turn on you to share as regularly as your brain really needs you to. 

What would it feel like to write some of it out in a letter format to share with her or with someone else?

Remind yourself that people who love you usually want to help you. Why? It is not only because they are kind. When you help someone else who is down by listening to them you usually feel better about yourself. So you might be helping her too.