@understandingPear3409
I am so incredibly sorry you are going through this...
I don't know what you're going through, but I recognized your words right away.
There are times when even typing a few words, which seems so easy to someone who hasn't been there, is absolutely incredibly hard, almost impossible. I know whatever you are going through is real, because I've been just as silent as you before, barely able to say one short sentance, not even able to say why and what and how. You're not blaming anyone, it just hurts to even think about. I really get it.
I'm Praying for you right now as soon as I press send, understandingPear, as a kindred in solidarity.
(I got through it one minute, one breath at a time. You will too.) 💛