It feels like people only love me out of obligation
I just feel like an obnoxious waste of space who could only be loved by somehow tricking people into a commitment. My family loves me, I know that, but sometimes it just seems fake.
I admitedly don't have very many friends. My best friend is practically obligated to be there for me since she's my sister, but she's graduating next year. I still have two years of high school when she leaves, and she is kind of my comfort person. I don't know if I'll be able to make new friends.
One day, it would be nice to date someone, but I'm not good at approaching people and I would probably just scare any potential date away just by being me.
Additionally, I'm trying to really figure out my sexuality, but I don't really know how. My family is pretty religious, and I'm kinda scared if I admit I'm anything but Heterosexual they will give up the pretense of loving me.
Idk. Sorry for the rant, I'm just feeling pretty unlovable.
@secretCup6563
thank you for sharing your story. my advice is to just be you, soon enough the right people will gravitate towards you. i also don't have a lot of friends but i'm sure that those few people are true and will stay with me through thick and thin. i had my first relationship when i was 28, sadly it only lasted for a year but i was still thankful it happened. all will fall in the right place at the right time, maybe just not now so be patient. regarding your sexual orientation, you are still young, you can explore just make sure that everything will be within bounderies. sending you love 
@sunnyCherry18
Thank you so much for your advice. I never really thought about how friends could eventually want to stay. And with the relationship thing, you're very right. It makes me feel a lot better that you didn't date 'til you were 28. I just feel surrounded by social customs trying to make me have a romantic relationship. As to the sexuality, it is really true that I'm still young. Thank you for reasuring me. I'm so used to people expecting me to know everything about myself and who I want to be that I forget that I do have time to figure it out. Thank you!
