How to get the energy to cry?
Today I called one of my friends and ended up crying. I was in a study room at the library and cleaned myself up enough to walk out to my car and keep crying for a bit. I know I needed it, I don't really have the privacy to cry in my house so my feelings have been bottled up for a while.
Lately when I do get the opportunity to cry, it feels like I run out of steam almost immediately. I'll cry for maybe 5-10 minutes, and then my body is just too physically exhausted to continue, but emotionally I feel like crying more. When this happens, I sit around for a bit (basically until I get bored) and then go for a walk/drive or take a nap. Those things really make me feel refreshed, but I still feel like I have emotions inside that I need to get out.
I feel like I don't really get anything from crying in these small fits and starts, it just brings all the emotions to the surface and then I can't find a way to let go of them so I sit around feeling bad. How can I just have a good cry?
@bandaidbear
I'm sorry to hear that you're going through this. It sounds really tough not having a private space to let your emotions out. Your feelings are completely valid, and it's important to find a way to express them. Have you considered talking to a friend or someone who can listen without judgment? Sometimes sharing what's on your mind can help lighten the emotional load. Remember, it's okay to cry, and I hope you find that space where you can truly let go.
@iPHOENIX
Thanks. I was talking to one of my friends when I started crying, and I have supportive friends that I talk to almost every day. I've also been in therapy for many years now. My car is a good place to cry, my problem is that I just don't have the energy to get all the tears out. It's like my body gives up once I start.
@bandaidbear
Thank you for sharing that with me. It sounds like you have a strong support system with your friends and therapy, which is really crucial during tough times. It's understandable that sometimes it feels like your body just can't keep up with releasing all the emotions. Just know that it's okay to take your time and let things unfold at your own pace. Clearing your mind and understanding what's truly bothering you is indeed important, and I'm glad you're working on that with your therapist. Remember, I'm here for you whenever you need someone to talk to, and there are always listeners available if you need to reach out. Take care of yourself.
@iPHOENIX
I knew exactly what was bothering me, that's why I was on the phone with my friend. I'm not really looking for emotional support or validation with this post, more of wondering if anyone else feels this or has any ways that they deal with this.