Dealing with the void created by a recent seperation
Earlier in the week my partner and I decided it was best to call it quits. It's clear that at the moment in time due to circumstaces completley out of our hands, we currently can't be what we need of each other. It's incredibly hard. As a person who in previous relationships lived up under my signinficant others like worms under big rocks, this time was different. I made sure to make time for myself and time for my family and friends. Even still, only a few days after making the decision I feel so cold and alone. It's so weird to not have that morning chat or midday ranting about silly stuff happening at our respective work places. Sharing funny tiktoks back and forth or youtube recipes we told each other we wanted to try once the pandemic has reached a better point.
I have 2 other pals I can talk to, but at this point I feel so miserable to continue to tell them how sad I am and as much as I care for my other friends and for the time I spend alone, it feels like absolutely nothing can console the emptiness I feel that only my previous partner could effortlessly provide.