Hi SLJ, I have been where you're at many times. It is very hard to hang on waiting for for the good to make its way back around to you. I am not sure of your circumstances, but I can tell you what has worked for me. First, I think having a strong support network you can turn to is very helpful. I am not close w my family so I turn to my friends. It helps to have someone validate your feelings. Second, I do ALOT of reading. Books, magazines, online, even Pinterest!' If you surround yourself with positivity eventually it will overshadow the darkness. Finally, maybe find yourself a therapist or support group. Being around others is therapeutic. I still get dragged down if I allow myself to spiral. I sometimes have to take things second by second, make it through one second, then the next until it builds into mins, then hours. I think it's wonderful you have reached out here, shows you are strong, open minded, and smart. You don't have to suffer in silence. We all go through this at some point, just for some of us it's more intense. Just remember you are enough, you deserve happiness and you're worth it. XOXO