Skip to main content Skip to bottom nav

my doggerel (written while depressed)

slowdecline48 May 31st, 2023

Did this one today...


LAMENT, MARCH 2023

Stare at the ceiling as the earth whirls blindly in the dark
as you lay there, ears ringing & head pain, as always
as your head hurts, spreading middle girth
Cold inside, halted, without a spark.

The occasional note as your gut slowly drains
from the meal of bolted flour, cheese, olives,
a manmade ration for the bipedal swine herd
Another day ebbs, another evening gains.

Stare at the ceiling as daily you know
Knowing inescapable: you're past the prime
the bald fact, always without tact,
Faded mirror never fails to show.

Staring upward as the ball hurtles in the black
around the hot bright mindless sun,
your stare as unseeing as the rock itself
a captive in a slowly rotting sack.


Feel free to comment, folks. Whaddaya think? I might post more poems here as the inspiration (for lack of a better word) strikes.

143
Wozhenwuyul June 5th, 2023

@slowdecline48 We often see words of encouragement printed on cards and posters. Words of encouragement are also frequently seen on social media websites, for example ***, Twitter, *** and many others.

1 reply
slowdecline48 OP June 6th, 2023

@Wozhenwuyul This sounds suspiciously like spam...

load more
bestVase7265 June 6th, 2023

You do get out your feelings nicely. That can help people see their feelings as normal.

Do you also write things when you are less depressed? I would include those as well because they can help people get inspired to get out of the depression wave. @slowdecline48

2 replies
slowdecline48 OP June 6th, 2023

@bestVase7265 Not normally, no. When I am not depressed my creative work is more active. Usually it's either sketching with ink & brush, or finished art, or some kind of DIY thing.

1 reply
bestVase7265 June 7th, 2023

It is interesting how your brain processes different emotions so differently, isn't it? @slowdecline48

load more
load more
slowdecline48 OP June 7th, 2023

INVENTORY

When you wake up, take inventory:
what parts hurt, what parts still work
This is the ritual, always done
no matter your belief: god, Jesus, Elvis
before putting on your shirt:
Note what works & what still hurts.

After you get up:
go to the bathroom, nowhere else
(you might have to run...the only thing
you still do like a child) as the
lower tract demands it, always:
It creates its own personal ***.

After sound & stink:
put the didofenac gel on aged fingers
maybe the rest of your hands if you need
dollar store cream on at least one joint
(usually two), no exception indeed
so the pain will not linger.

Then to food if you can cook.
If not & you've forethought,
get something from the freezer
if not, then head to the nearest
gas station/convenience store...
"food" without goodness, plastic you bought.

Eat like a cow, because that is easiest
then go about your day, like
numberless days before it.

1 reply
wIthpeACE October 24th

@slowdecline48 Its like reality but...wow. Like '...'😲

load more
slowdecline48 OP June 30th, 2023

A haiku:

Tools on the table
lie there, unused, for the same
cause: pain, vertigo.
3 replies
bestVase7265 July 1st, 2023

So many meanings there. @slowdecline48

2 replies
slowdecline48 OP July 2nd, 2023

Yeah, I'm a regular Zen master... But seriously, it always surprises me when someone looks at my work & sees more levels of meaning in it than I had intended. A bunch of chisels really are laying on my drafting table right now 😝 ...gonna try to tune 'em up & fix a few of the handles this coming week.

1 reply
bestVase7265 July 3rd, 2023

I think that is what poetry is...seeing stuff other people didn't. It is great how just a few words can have even more possible meanings than tons of words.@slowdecline48

load more
load more
load more
SweetPea321 July 3rd, 2023

Oh I love poems. Thank you. I looked up at my popcorn ceiling after reading that and scowled at how ugly it was. Stupid bumps lol.


4 replies
slowdecline48 OP July 9th, 2023

@SweetPea321 I hear that...

3 replies
SweetPea321 July 9th, 2023

Are you married or do you have a muse? I'm divorced and enjoying being single for now. Perhaps in my golden years I'll meet the love of my life since dating is not an option for me now. All of my time and energy goes to my autistic child.

2 replies
slowdecline48 OP July 9th, 2023

@SweetPea321 No, no wife or muse here. There was a time when I wanted to settle down but that didn't pan out, & eventually I had to let her go. We were friends for a while afterwards, though...

My sympathies for you re that parenting....never sired any children myself (that I know of) but my cousin & his wife are still taking care of their son even with his being in his twenties. His autism is full-blown, so it's always been a job for them both.

1 reply
SweetPea321 July 25th, 2023

Hi @slowdecline48 If I knew you in real life, I'd ask to buy one of your hardwood canes and you could sign it for me.

I also hate the disturbing sound of fireworks when it's not the 4th of July.

load more
load more
load more
load more
MeaningfulSilence July 8th, 2023

@slowdecline48

Hello there slowdecline, how are you doing?

It's not for everyone to have an artistic side, it makes you unique!

Wishing you a good weekend 💙

8 replies
slowdecline48 OP July 9th, 2023

@MeaningfulSilence I appreciate the check-in, thanks. Right now...eh. I'm okay.

It's hurricane season so the rain is as sudden & thorough as it is unpredictable. Haven't been able to work on the current wood project since the only place I can do it is out on the patio--half of which is uncovered. Whenever it's not pouring buckets or drizzling, it's too hot to be outside. I've been keeping occupied while cooped up.

Got music, which is good. Sometimes I catch up on my sleep.

7 replies
MeaningfulSilence July 9th, 2023

@slowdecline48

Hi alowdecline48!

Does the unpredictable bad weather of hurricane season last long? It's unfortunate that you can't work on your project. I love wood, it's one of my favorites! Yours seems an interesting project, is it a secret project or can I ask about it? 😊

Hope you can keep feeling okay, also if weather is not favorable.

Cheers !


6 replies
slowdecline48 OP July 9th, 2023

Hi there, @MeaningfulSilence! You seem like a cheerful person...that's a nice thing to be.

My current project is a cane. Managed to get a bit done on it early this morning after being awakened at around 0240 hrs this morning by some young fool setting off fireworks in the parking lot... At this point, all that's left is refining the tip, putting the endcap on it & then sanding it down & applying a finish. Thinking I might do an oil finish this time.

I am undecided about whether to post photos of it here. If I do then it will be in a separate thread.

Also it will be my 9th cane so far...started making them when my right knee started hurting in the early 2010's, & now I have additional health-related reasons. If you're gonna walk with a cane then please don't use one of those chintzy aluminum ones they sell at drug stores & Wally World, for the love of God....seriously. That junk doesn't last. You'll be lucky if you get five years out of one. A good hardwood cane can last for decades!

5 replies
bestVase7265 July 10th, 2023

Your canes sound beautiful and so meaningful. I am sorry that it is too hot now to work. It has been really warm for July this year. @slowdecline48

1 reply
slowdecline48 OP July 17th, 2023

@bestVase7265 & @MeaningfulSilence - I finally posted a few snapshots, though they're slightly dated by now. You can see them here. (Scroll down because they're near the bottom)

load more
bestVase7265 July 18th, 2023

You have quite the artistic eye. Beautiful. @slowdecline48

1 reply
slowdecline48 OP July 19th, 2023

Thanks. I do my best.

load more
bestVase7265 July 20th, 2023

You should be proud of yourself. @slowdecline48

load more
load more
load more
load more
slowdecline48 OP July 9th, 2023

Another haiku:

Some young idi0t
Disturbed my bliss so I rose,
then put files to wood.
slowdecline48 OP July 13th, 2023

Sleepless in OP

21st-century drug:

Internet, cell phones.

1 reply
bestVase7265 July 14th, 2023

Definitely @slowdecline48

load more
indigo22 July 25th, 2023

@slowdecline48 That was a very powerful piece of writing, you are very talented. I would love to read more of your writing. Writing can be a great way to express yourself. Do you find that it helps you? :)

1 reply
slowdecline48 OP July 27th, 2023

@indigo22 Thanks. Sometimes it does, yeah...

load more
Phylomena July 25th, 2023

Huh