When you remember your depression (TRIGGER WARNING)

... and the worst parts of it. I know it's there obviously, but it's hard to remember when you felt the worst and just wanted to d**. I was deeply touched by a danish tv series called "Rita" today. There was this character who commited s**cide and then the MC blaimed herself for it. This episode she had a talk with a friend, who told her that she had tried to do that too, when she was younger. And then she said:

"It's nobody's fault. Not even their own. They just want peace."

And that really hit me square in the face. I feel blue and down and just shocked. I don't even know what to do with myself atm. and I kinda wanna cry? Bc it's so true. That's all I wanted at that point in my life: Peace. And that sentence has just woken up all my feelings who are normally located under my bed in a locked box.

I don't really know what to do with myself right now...