Well, I've learned a valuable lesson
Before I was diagnosed, I thought if I were to have depression, I wouldn't resort to medicine, I'd fight it head on.
I was stupid for thinking that.
I had no idea. Now, I never have shamed anyone for being on medication for it. I knew for some it was necessary. I just didn't think it was for me, until about 2 years-ish ago.
I was diagnosed in college during my junior year. I first found 7cups, then, after much begging from my advisor, I saw over the counselors at my university and after working with her, she recommended I try the medication. So I went to our health center during doctor's hours and got the prescription. The first day and week were an absolute NIGHTMARE due to my body adjusting to the medication. I locked myself in my room, it was that bad. However, the more my body adjusted, the more comfortable I got with the thought of being on medication myself. Especially after I felt and noticed the benefits of the medication. It took the physical edge off, which was, and still is amazing. Then, when I was almost out, I'd go to the health center and renew it, no problem.
Now that I'm no longer in school, I have issues. I cannot just go and renew my prescription anymore. I would have to go and pay for it to be renewed since it wasn't my primary care doctor who did it for me. I have now health insurance cause I cannot afford it and do not qualify for any of the state programs. So, I'm on my last batch of pills and I'm SOL. Sigh.