Tips on accepting the inevitable?
Just hoping someone may be able to share tips on acceptance. I feel like I'm trying to do reality checking and self talk reflective of a physically terminal situation. But I cannot accept it yet. Am I supposed to? That there's just no real treatment or cure, that the hope is for slow demise? That I will never feel better than I do today-and today feels awful. I try to be positive but I'm not there. I'm mad, frustrated, sad, agitated, confused, not ready for all this. I feel like my depression would improve if I could actually accept what is happening and wrap my head around this. I promised two people I wouldn't end things and will "fight til the end". Can anyone relate?
@DeeHopeful at moment I'm not the best person to advise on acceptance aa I feel more like in the giving in phase. And am resisting any of the things I knew helped me in past...
However last year I had been trying therapy focusing on self compassion. Have you ever tried?
Last week I actually listened to one of the meditations by Tara Brach if you wish to look her up for an idea of self compassion. I still am far away from loving myself but I recall some of the practices were helpful when I was not being too stubborn.
Having said that... Do no try too hard at figuring this out all at one go. Its a lot to take in. Grief is involved as we bid Farewell to parts of us in the process of illness. And grief has no time frame. Allow yourself to grieve.
I'm. Not religious but some concepts of Buddhism can be very reassuring when it comes to acceptance.
@anonyLemon4233 Thank you again for your time and insights. The thing that sticks out to me most in this reply is that grief has no time frame. I'm going to mull on that for a bit. I think I've been battling with that and didn't recognize it-trying to force that part. Thank you. And I'll check out the meditation you recommended. I have no ego in thinking I have anything figured out and am open and appreciative to your thoughtful suggestions. I have a feeling from what you said about working on self compassion and how supportive you've been to me in such a short while- that you may have an easier time extending care to others than yourself? Isn't it ironic that we can care for others' suffering while battling and flailing in our own? How can I support you today? I wish I could share some light with you. Thank you again, I am lifted when humanity shows up in people.
@DeeHopeful being patient with yourself is not easy...
Yes in my case I always found it more natural to care for others. Probably since I was a child and felt I had to protect my mother so that I think explains why I now feel way older than her... And she says she feels young @83!
I always fought for the protection of nature and wildlife and animal rights but found it hard to do the same for me. Whatever cause I take up I end up burnt-out and now I feel disengaged from everything as am self absorbed by this darkness.
Yes indeed now in my mid 40s I realise what true wisdom is and what is most invaluable to learn.. Self acceptance. Why were we never taught these vital things when we were young? It seems weird to me we were never explained the basics of life and self love.
May you experience a peaceful meditation if you try it out
@anonyLemon4233 This has been really great when nothing was feeling great at all. I thank you. I can feel your suffering from what is probably geographically distant as you say- but you have given me a gift I didn't know was possible in the midst of your own pain. You share light and support freely and you haven't hesitated to help a stranger which actually makes my heart want to burst with gratitude. Please don't take this as false positivity but there's a reason you're still here.