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I have been placed on something called the restricted recipient program because my insurance thinks that I visited the ER too many times/unnecessarily during the pandemic. I had like so many months of wheezing and illness and the meds they gave me weren't working. Anyway...I've been sick and wheezing recently and couldn't get in to see my doctor so it was suggested that I go to the urgent care. I went and the xray showed that I have pneumonia. Now I have to wait for my doctor to approve my meds because the urgent care doctor isn't on the list of prescribers. So many hoops to jump through just to get the meds I need to feel better. I'm so frustrated.
@SweetPea321 It sounds like you've been dealing with a lot of health issues recently, and that can be really overwhelming and frustrating. I'm here to listen and support you, and to help you find ways to cope with the challenges you're facing. Remember that you have the right to advocate for yourself and your health, and that there are resources and support available to you. If you need someone to talk to or support during this difficult time, I'm here for you.
Thank you, Vase and Willow.
My Mama passed away around 5 this morning.
I am so, so sorry to hear. I know that you were aware that this was coming, but that doesn't make it easier.
Your talking to your mom yesterday takes on much more meaning now. You got a chance to be with her right near the end.
Sending strength as you navigate the next few days and weeks. @SweetPea321
Thank you, Vase. Yes, I'm so glad that I visited her the day before. Even though she wasn't awake, she did give a couple faint "Yeah" responses when I talked to her. My Aunt Linda (Mama's younger sister) went to the funeral home with me today. We had a good talk there and back. It was so nice to see her. And I got to see Mama one more time before she gets cremated. She was laying there so peaceful as I bent down to gently hug her and kiss her forehead. It was sad, but good to say goodbye.
I'm tired and I look forward to bed tonight.
How are you?
It is always good to realize that your network is much wider than you usually imagine. I think that is the small gift that funerals and death provide - bringing everyone else together within a web of care.
I am glad that you got to say goodbye in person today. That too is a blessing.
But it is all so, so draining. Give yourself lots of time to rest in the next few days. @SweetPea321
Meet me in the new thread. This one is getting long.
Ok. Idk what's going on. I tried to create a new thread twice and I can't find it. Luckily, I copied the second one so here it is-
I'm feeling really sad about Mama's passing today. Lots of crying and my heart racing. I wish I didn't have so much to do this week so I could just lay down and take a break. I feel bad that I couldn't afford a memorial service for my mom. Just the cremation, which was her wish. My Aunt who came with me to view Mama at the funeral home yesterday said she would talk to the rest of the family and see about coming up with the money to have one. Still...I would feel bad that I couldn't come up with the money.
@bestVase7265 how was your day?
P.S. My daughter made banana bread that she didn't like in her kids baking class today and she was complaining that the class is boring. It's so hard to please her. I tried to sign her up for something fun for the summer and I guess it isn't good enough. She said no to soccer and other suggestions.
I am so sorry about the grieving for your mom. Sending strength and peace. It takes time. It is okay not to have a memorial service. Maybe you could create an internet spot where people could post good stories and memories of her. That can be a memorial service too.
Don't focus too much on your daughter and whether she is liking the camp or not. She is absorbing some of your energy and sadness. You chose a good camp and it is enough that she is busy and you are able to focus on other things while she is there.
I could be better, but let us focus on you right now. You are going through more stuff than me.
