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I have been placed on something called the restricted recipient program because my insurance thinks that I visited the ER too many times/unnecessarily during the pandemic. I had like so many months of wheezing and illness and the meds they gave me weren't working. Anyway...I've been sick and wheezing recently and couldn't get in to see my doctor so it was suggested that I go to the urgent care. I went and the xray showed that I have pneumonia. Now I have to wait for my doctor to approve my meds because the urgent care doctor isn't on the list of prescribers. So many hoops to jump through just to get the meds I need to feel better. I'm so frustrated.
First a cyst on the back of your knee wasn't caused by weight gain. Those things happen. Weight may make things worse, but blaming yourself and then ending up in a cycle of overeating isn't going to help to heal your knee.
I can understand the pain, but do try to shower daily. Even if it hurts, it is going to help a lot with depression and the overeating. You will feel better because you will know that you are caring for yourself in some way.
I am very much here to cheer you on as you try to eat more healthy. I was sending the occasional recipe a few months ago. Would you like me to try to do that again? I will make sure that the recipes are easy and healthy. For instance, today we had whole wheat pita bread topped with low fat cream cheese mixed with sunflower seeds and some vegetables. They were easy and tasty.
I know that you have trouble getting your daughter to eat new things, but it is really important that you stay healthy for both of you. If you only buy healthy things then both of you will have to eat them. If there are no cookies then she can't steal them. Or you can start by buying healthier cookies. She won't starve because she will eventually get hungry enough to eat something.
You can do this. I would love to help. I can ask every night if you want.
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Don't worry about the recipes, Vase, but thanks. I know what not to eat. I just gotta do it. I'm seriously considering the weight loss surgery. I've been obese for awhile and now I have a bad leg. Awhile ago I lost 30 lbs but I was suffering mentally and couldn't eat much during that time. I've gained it all back.
My dear ol Dad called me today. He's doing better after being in the hospital with pneumonia so that's good. He only had 3 more radiation sessions to go before he got sick.
Tomorrow I have court. For CPS. I got back custody, but still have court. CPS knows I don't have much of a support system so they wanna stick around and help as much as they can.
Are you ready for the work week, Vase?
That CPS cares enough to offer you continued support is wonderful. You do such a solid job with all you have been handed, but having more support makes it easier.
I totally get not wanting recipes, but I still want to help. If you want, tell me each day what you ate. Having someone who you are responsible to may help you get over the hump of eating a bit better. I am here to cheer you on.
The more healthy stuff that you buy, the less that you will be tempted. There are also healthier versions of what you eat normally that you probably haven't discovered yet. Tell me what you eat and I can try to recommend a healthier version of it. I believe in you.
I am overall doing okay. I have lots of work to grade and read at this point in the semester though. @SweetPea321
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Thanks for thinking of me, Vase. I didn't get around to posting last night because i was catching up on laundry and didn't realize the time. I'm ashamed to say what I eat. It's mostly fast food now. Tonight we're having Chicken Fettuccine Alfredo. We've been eating out because my kid doesn't like anything I make. I swear she doesn't hardly like anything anyone makes. My dad's wife is a good cook and she didn't like any of her food either.
Every day feels like it's the same and I don't have much to look forward to. My leg pain makes daily life bad.
I'm glad to hear you're doing OK. Keep being you, Vase 🤗
Just hoping that you are doing okay today. Thinking about you.
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My daughter's therapist and Occupational Therapy both refuse to see my daughter again until she's been seen by the behavior wizards. These behavior wizards are all booked up too. They're not even taking any new people on their waitlist.
It's kind of bad when the therapist doesn't even want to see your daughter. The judge asked me if I was nervous about this summer and I said kind of. She asked me that because I won't get breaks while she's in school.
I can understand why you would be nervous about everything. Did the therapists say what they would do in your shoes if the behavior gurus had no appointments?
Did the judge have any words of wisdom on how to handle your summer?
I do believe that you will figure things out a step at a time.@SweetPea321@bestVase7265
I don't like to miss much because I enjoy our connection. I'm afraid it'll be another month before I can get some relief with a shot and we'll maybe physical therapy will help (doubt it).
I honestly don't remember what the judge said. Something about hopefully leaning on the county during times of need. I'm always so nervous at court. This whole thing is nerve-wracking, being under the county's microscope, but at least there's support.
I'm going to have a worker come into my home and help me with meal prep, I guess. I wonder how that will go.
Today I laid down for 3 hours to give my leg relief. Talked to my therapist in the morning, so that was good. It's 60 degrees here today. This is the perfect weather. Not too hot or cold. I hope we get to enjoy spring for awhile.
How are you, Vase? Are you feeling better healthwise now?
Physical therapy may not help while it is going on, but it can really make things better a day or two later. Believe it will help and it really can. It is a little nerve wracking at first, but you can do it.
I am glad someone is coming to the house to give you a bit of advice and support. Focus on the support part. Everyone wants to make things easier for you.
How is the new eating plan going? Even little steps are excellent. Are you still working towards drinking less soda? Even that doesn't have to be perfect. Every little bit helps.
I am glad that you are getting some nice weather. It has been quite warm and dry here. I had to push myself to walk today because it was so warm.
Physically I am pretty okay at this point. The end of the semester is always intense so I feel a little overwhelmed. But as is true of everything, breaking it up into small tasks and not looking down makes it doable.@SweetPea321
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I'm still drinking Mountain Dew. I'm trying to have only one can a day. I just picked up a grocery order. That's how I shop so I don't have to walk up and down the aisles. I won't use those elderly scooters that they have. Anyway...the point is I'll be cooking at home now instead of eating out. I really gotta get away from that.
It's sprinkling out today. Gloomy day. I ended up sleeping when I laid down while she was in school. Vase, I hate getting up in the morning. I take heavy meds at bedtime, plus the leg hurting makes me not want to get up and get going.
Tomorrow is pay day and I was thinking about going to visit my Mom. If I can muster up the energy to do so.
Summer break is approaching. What will you do for it? Will you go on a vacation?
So sorry that I didn't post last night. We had a storm come through and we lost the internet. Unluckily it is supposed to rain for the next several days. This is good in terms of us really, really needing rain. It is bad because we were supposed to have the windows replaced this morning and will now need to be rescheduled. Oh well.
It is great that you are down to a single can of Mountain Dew. That is much better than what you were doing. You might try switching over to Mountain Dew Zero every other day next.
Eating at home is much better than eating out. It is good that you are going to do more of that. Some of the things that you can get from the food store are really easy to do. Last night we had some Morningstar Veggiburgers with coleslaw. There are a number of varieties, but I like the tomato basil one that takes vaguely like pizza.
Because we are doing half of the windows which are expensive, we won't do much in terms of vacations this year. In a few weeks my niece will graduate college in Ohio so we will be up there about 4 days for that. Then we might go somewhere for a few days at the beginning of August.
I do hope that you get a chance to see your mom today. You will feel good about it since she has been so ill. Any time that you get is precious.
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I didn't have the energy to visit Mom while my daughter was in school, but we went right after school got out. I brought my mom her magazines, Coke and some Reese's peanut buttercups. She was sleeping and it was hard to wake her up to talk, but she eventually did. She wasn't too alert and we only visited for half an hour because she said, "they're here" so we had to go.
I was also thinking of my Dad and his wife. They called me last night saying they weren't doing too well, mobility wise. They live in the country in a big house and they are strained with money right now. I plan on buying Dad a scooter when my extra money comes this summer if he doesn't get one by then. He's bought me two cars in my life. I wish I could help. Financially and physically. They said the neighbor will help if Dad falls. I'm afraid they're almost ready for a nursing home, but they have this big house full of stuff and my Dad has the quonset with his tractor and four wheeler and like a million tools that are organized so nice. They are 82 and 80. My mom is 72. I've always helped my Mom because she lived in the same town as me. I feel bad that I can't do much for my Dad and his wife.
P.S. I wondered what those Morningstar Veggiburgers tasted like before 🤔 I might have to try them sometime. I like tomato and basil.
Too bad about tour windows being canceled. I'm sure you're excited to get that over with.
With the elderly parents issue in general, we are dealing with some of the same things. It is hard no matter how you look at it.
My dad is 91 and my mom is 82. They live in a senior community, but I have trouble convincing them to use any of the services. They are also about 3 hours away and I regularly feel guilty that I can't do more. This week's crisis was needing to get my dad to the doctor every day for a skin cancer treatment and my mom having a mini car accident and dislodging her oil pan. She didn't want to get it fixed and miss dad's appointment. I finally convinced her to ask a friend to drive him one day so that the car could be repaired. But it was really frustrating and I ended up yelling about her driving at all. So then I felt guilty.
Oh well. All I can do is apologize and try better next time. We do the best we can with what we have to offer. @SweetPea321
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It must be very difficult to lose your independence when you get elder. In my opinion, I think Dad is ready for a nursing home, but they have house payments to worry about.
We all get frustrated from time to time. Your mom probably understands your concern about her driving. She probably yelled at you out of concern before too when you were younger. I'm guessing she'll accept your apology.
So I text my 5 aunts and uncles in a group text after I visit Mom to give them updates on how she's doing. The one aunt who lives close to us finally visited her. Anyway...a couple of them ask for pictures so I try to text a pic at visits. This past visit my mom was sleepy and I took a pic of her sleeping. Her head was slightly tilted and her mouth was open a little, but she looked so peaceful. Under the pic I put "Tired Mama". One of my aunts shamed me for taking unattractive pics of her and asked me why I would do that. I didn't find the pic to be unattractive, but I ended up crying because I felt guilty like maybe I was taking her dignity away or something. I just love my mom and they ask for pics. She's not going to look her greatest as she is at end of life, but she's still beautiful to me. Another aunt said, "It's just us family." I feel conflicted. What do you think, Vase?
I think that you absolutely did the right thing with the pictures. They haven't been visiting so they were shocked. That needed to happen. They were trying to shame the messenger because they didn't like the message. I bet the picture was really sweet. I think people sleeping are wonderful pictures. I am sorry that you ended up upset by it though. You didn't deserve that pain.
My parents were doing pretty good tonight. It was a mud guard for the engine that actually fell off so it was less serious. Most important, they found a mechanic that they can trust. So another crisis averted.
My parents live in a retirement community where they can move from their rented home to assisted living or a nursing home as necessary. That part is a blessing if they will actually ever move.
But costs are always high. We really need a better system in the US. @SweetPea321
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A retirement community sounds good. That's nice that they have those options to move. I wish my folks lived in a retirement community instead of their big house in the country. Just thinking about all the work it would take for them to downsize and move makes me tired.
Today I got up late and made my daughter some breakfast. Then I laid down to rest my leg. It feels better after taking meds and laying down, but I hate to have to lay down every day. There's other stuff I should be doing. It's so hard to get up and go right away in the morning throughout the school week. We're always a couple minutes late to school.
My Dad called again today. He sounded really out of it. My half sister is there to help. She lives closer. I have some half and step sisters. We've never really been close. I've just not had the opportunity to be around them. They're all older than me. I'm the youngest. I'm glad she's there and another half sister is going to be there on Wednesday. I wish I could help Dad too, but I live farther away and have a little daughter to take care of.
P.S. My mom's social security check is almost all used for the nursing home. It is expensive.
It is hard being far away, but it is good that other people can help a bit. Downsizing is really hard. I am not looking forward to it with my parents either. They refuse to get rid of much right now.
I can understand the need to rest that knee. Get up and walk as much as you can. How has food gone this weekend?
My day today was really tough. There has been tons of drama at our church and it exploded today in spectacular fashion at a congregational meeting. The senior minister is a wonderful preacher but he is horrible behind the scenes to people. He got called out on it a few months ago and a state committee evaluated. They argued that he should get some immediate training. But he was only about 9 months away from retirement so a large camp has developed on his side. He is indeed a *** who really damaged me when I was hit hard a few years back with my depression. I have never filed a report on him. I may need to now but that means exposing myself and my condition to everyone.
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We ate out for the weekend. Now I'm trying to cook. I don't feel like standing. It hurts. It hurts to stand and walk. I hate this. I wanna feel normal again.
Vase, I'm sorry you have some drama with the minister. Was it verbal abuse of some kind? You don't deserve that. You're such a kind and compassionate soul. You're always helping others. I guess you gotta decide if you should pursue justice or let it go. I'm not sure what he did or said so I can't say what I would do.
Today was just another day. I look forward to the future when my leg won't hurt.
You are trying to cook. That matters. Is there a way of resting your leg on something as you cook so that you don't have to stand completely? Let us see if we can find a way to make it less painful.
The trauma with the senior pastor was back in 2016 when things were really bad and I went to him for advice. Rather than any spiritual help, he decided to tell me that my therapist and primary care physician were obviously horrible, that I should take any job that I could find as soon as possible (I was unemployed at the time but desperately wanted to teach), and that if I was even somewhat up that I was just going to go downhill again. My therapist (who I did not tell that he told me to find someone else) told me that he was so toxic that we should not speak again. We haven't spoken much since but I need to sing so I kept going to the church.
I have spent much of today in conversation with the associate minister who has come under attack by the power couple, the senior pastor and his wife. I am not sure that we accomplished much, but offering my support made me feel better.@SweetPea321
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At least you were able to have a moment of peace when you offered your support. Helping others can help us to feel better. Then everybody wins. That's good of you, Vase.
Today I start my weight loss journey. I got the new drug to try for appetite suppression, but there are some risks. I gotta keep an eye on my blood pressure and heart. Then I was referred for weight loss surgery. This will be a life changing event for me, but I need to do the work to change it too. I think (hope) I can.
My step mom texted an update to me today saying that the doctor said it would be a miracle if my Dad lives beyond months. Does that mean a couple of months? 7 months? So stressful. Poor Daddy. I'm also worried about what will happen to her once Dad is gone. She won't be able to afford that house without Dad's income and they don't have any money saved.
I don't think you should be worried about the doctor's report yet. You should be relieved. It means that there could be some kind of chemical imbalance that is causing you to retain more weight. It might take a while to figure it out, but it isn't all on what you have eaten. Feel less guilty.
The weight loss medication and surgery sound awesome. It is all a step at a time.
I am so sorry to hear about your father so soon after hearing about your mom. The key is that timelines can be really vague. We learned that with my husband's mother. You are doing what you can for now - taking it a day at a time.
Yes, being able to help a bit in the church situation is good. I also am relieved to not have to really be in contact at all with the senior pastor and his wife again. She was in charge of the youth ministry so I had to see her often with mission trips that the kids go on every summer. She isn't going this summer which will be good. @SweetPea321
Hi Vase,
Well...I took the weight loss pill this morning. The only thing that happened is my feet swelled up. That's one of the side effects. I didn't take my diuretic because I wanted to lay down and not get up every 15 minutes to pee. I think I might take it tomorrow though. I asked my doctor if I could have one can of mountain dew a day with the weight loss pill, but she said I have to ask myself what's more important, the mountain dew or the weight loss? So today is my first day without m dew. I did stop to get a small sprite to get the fizzy fix. So far I'm doing good without caffeine.
I have to take a shower, put my daughter's bedding on. She peed the bed last night so I had to wash. Then I still have a mound of clothes to fold. Then make dinner. I'm taking a quick rest after shoe and clothes shopping for my daughter at Walmart. My leg was killing me standing and walking around in there.
How was your day today?
You were up and walking more today, you had a pretty good reaction to the diet pill and you had no Mountain Dew. I would call that a pretty successful day! I know it was tiring but you did it.
Work with the single can of Sprite for a bit. You might be eventually able to change it out for another kind of fizzy with even less sugar.
My day was okay. The grading crunch has begun and there was a bit more church stuff (but not on the level of Sunday). @SweetPea321
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Hopefully you can get the church stuff straightened out so you can feel better. It sounds like you have some support regarding the situation, right? That's good.
Day 2, no M Dew. 1 can of Sprite in its place. I'm not feeling caffeine withdrawal so far so that's good. Just low energy, but that's normal. Also the second day for my weight loss pill. It makes my feet swell, but I took furosemide for that. I had two little chest pains just like yesterday. Very mild and short. I wonder if that needs to be reported to my doctor before our next visit in a month 🤔 I don't want her to take me off it. The pains were little. What do you think?
I'm eating smaller portions. I could go for some more food tonight, but I'll pass.
I would probably continue with the medication and not report it yet. If you have the same thing happen every day for a week perhaps, but mild and short pain sounds like your body adjusting. Just watch for when it happens and record it. Is it close to the time you take the medication? Could it be the one medication or the other one for swelling?
Glad to hear that another day without Mountain Dew is working and that you feel less hungry. That is all a plus. You are doing great!
I am okay with the church stuff. I admitted to more people last night what the senior pastor had done to me so long ago. So I am taking control of my story. That is a good thing, but pretty emotional. I have a therapy session Monday so that will help.
Otherwise it is just a massive grading pile ahead of me.@SweetPea321
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Good evening, Vase. I'm glad that you're sharing your story and letting people in. That's very brave of you. Depression and anxiety (or any other mental illness) is nothing to be ashamed of. This younger generation is more open with mental health and I like that it's finally being normalized. People don't have to be perfect all the time.
I visited my mom today when my daughter got out of school. We visited for an hour and a half. Mom didn't eat her food they brought her so I went to the gas station in the small town to buy her a mini pizza. Then she says there's too much cheese on it. Ugh...eat already, mother! It was still a good visit.
Day 3 Diet pill and no M Dew. I didn't have any chest pain at all today, but my energy was low. Maybe once my body gets used to no caffeine my energy will come back. Not that I had much before anyway, but this depression can't last forever. The sun is shining more and you can see the green grass now. Sunshine + green grass + blue skies = happiness.
Don't worry too much about your grading pile. Little by little you always get through it 🙂
You made it to see you mom - awesome! She probably needs to eat less now anyway. What is great about cheese pizza is that you can always take the cheese off.
It sounds like the dieting is also going well. Give your body time to adjust, just like you said. Are you also eating some healthier, high energy foods? I know that nuts can be particularly good if you buy a thing of peanuts or almonds or something. Just get the unsalted or lightly salted kind.
Today for me was pretty basic. Lots and lots of grading. It is easier when grading is broken up with class preparation. Student writing can be quite bad and you can't read too much before your brain starts melting. @SweetPea321
Hey Vase,
I avoid nuts because of my diverticulitis flare ups, but I've been eating little diet meals (Atkins and Smart Ones). That way I don't have to stand and cook as much. I decided that Saturday will be cheat day, so today we had burgers and ice cream. I bought some more bananas and yogurt for snack and some Special K Blueberry for a healthier cereal. My daughter really likes it. I even bought her some yogurt. She said she likes strawberry yogurt in school. Still no m dew (Day 4 without) and I'm actually doing fine other than the super low energy.
I spent some time laying around after lunch. I just hate feeling so dreary. I'm suppose the lack of caffeine is adding to my dreariness, but it'll eventually pass. The one can of Sprite is helping. After I got up we went to the park to get some fresh air and sun. That's about all for today. Tomorrow I will get up and watch church on my phone. I've been thinking of looking for a church to join but I don't know how my daughter would act. She'd probably make a scene.
The first part of that is beautiful. You really are doing great with the whole diet thing! What good purchases! This chart might help a little in locating high energy foods that are somewhat healthy beyond nuts: https://www.wellmark.com/blue/nutrition/20-fatigue-fighting-superfoods If you are getting your daughter to eat a little healthier too, then that is even a bigger plus. Her behavior might get better as well.
Sorry that you are still low energy. Give your body some more time to adjust. Also sorry about the neighbor kids. That one takes lots of patience, ear plugs, and possibly going elsewhere more often to get some fresh air. Maybe they will go on some mini-trip somewhere.
I love the church online idea. Experiment with it for a bit to see if you can find one that you like. Work with online for a bit and then maybe you can consider in person. Lots of them have kid programs during the service and would probably be willing to work with your daughter a bit. But it might take a while to find the right one.
I have had a rougher day myself, to be honest. I had gotten to the point where I hadn't been down in the depression hole for a while. I would get sad or anxious about stuff, but depression does indeed feel different. I know what your low energy feels like today. I struggled to get stuff done and think clearly. It is really just my brain trying to process all the trauma of the last few weeks as I relive what happened so many years ago. I am pretty sure it will get better soon, but as you know, you can't will it to happen. @SweetPea321
My Dad passed away at 12:30 this morning. He went peacefully in his sleep at his home surrounded by people who loved him. I wish I would've been able to talk to him last night, but he was too ill to come to the phone. He was 82 years old and I will forever hear him tell me, "You gotta be tough" when I feel that something is too difficult or scary in life.
Oh, I know that news like that kind of takes your breath away doesn't it? I am so, so sorry to hear.
Do you have lots of good memories swirling around your brain right now? I hope so. But give yourself lots of time to grieve. I can't tell you what the path through this will look like, but I can assure you that you are on a path.
That he died peacefully without a long period of suffering is a blessing. That he had 82 years is also a blessing.
Sending lots of love and peace. I wish that I could send you a hug, but I will send one virtually at least.
Is there anything else that I can do for you right now?@SweetPea321
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THanks, Vase. You're doing it 🤗
Give yourself lots of grace tomorrow, okay?@SweetPea321
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Thanks for your kind words last night, Vase. By the way, did you see the message above where I said I missed your previous post? I forgot to refresh. You matter too.
Yesterday I cried all day long. Today was better. I just wish I could've been there to say goodbye to Dad like the others. I tried to call him the night before, but he was to ill to talk. I was just thinking of how he came to visit me two Christmas's ago and how when we got in my car to go to the store, I put on a CD that had this funny song that he used to play when I was kid. He laughed as soon as it played. Anyway...I printed an 8 x 10 photo of him and bought an elegant frame for it. It looks so nice. I bought two frames, so I could eventually put a photo of Mama in the other. It's comforting to see the photo. It feels like he's here with me.
I had physical therapy today. It was hard, but I got some stretches to do at home now. I over ate again today. I completely threw my diet out the window. I gotta get back on track. I'll restart tomorrow.
I am improving, so don't worry about me.
I can imagine that it was a bit tough that you weren't there for the moment that he died, but I can remember the nice memories that you shared from just a few weeks ago. You were quite happy when you got back. I also love the photo idea and thinking back on other fun times. Those things can really help.
It is great that you made it to physical therapy. That actually helps at moments like this to refocus yourself. Expending energy in another direction for just a little bit helps your brain to heal.
The great thing about diets is that you can always start fresh at the next meal. So erase anything that you have done (a day to eat a bit more because you were grieving isn't horrible) and just try again tomorrow. Remember that lots of sugar and fat (or not eating much at all) actually makes emotions stronger even though that is what your brain is telling you to do.
Sending lots of strength and peace tonight.@SweetPea321
@SweetPea321 I am so sorry dude. Healthcare is salty in this country. Other developed nations literally look at our system as barbaric.
That said, if it helps at all, maybe try to focus on your inner strength. It might be the only thing you can control but it can grow here, I think.
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I'm glad you are improving, Vase. Today was better for me. I looked at my Dad's picture and told him what I would've said had I had the chance. I know it's gonna hit me later when I go awhile without him calling me. He used to call to check up on me once a week or two. I just checked my voice-mail and heard a message where my step mom was crying and saying she didn't think Dad was going to make it. I didn't get the notification that I had a vm or see a missed call from her. I feel bad that I wasn't there for her. I sent her a message saying that I didn't hear the vm and that I was sorry. I hope she forgives me. I've spoken to her since, but still I feel bad for not acknowledging that message.
I did the stretch exercises with my leg today. The leg feels slightly better after doing them. Maybe physical therapy will help. I'm hopeful now.
I think I made it in my calorie range today. I'm still hungry, but oh well I guess. I've been on the appetite suppressant for a week now and so far it's not suppressing my appetite. How long will it take, I wonder, or is it just not working for me?
Anyway...did you get some energy back today?
I am sure that she forgives you. Going to see her at some point might be nice. She will need support and it doesn't all need to come on one day or at one time.
I am glad that you are managing a little better in dealing with the grief. It does come in waves but that means there are okay moments too.
I knew that those exercises were going to help some. They won't be perfect, but even a little less pain is great.
I also think that the pills are working. You may still be hungry, but you are able to maintain the diet. That is better than things were a week or two ago. Your body will continue to adjust.
You are doing good things under hard circumstances. You should be proud of yourself. Be sure to tell the physical therapist and the doctor that you did your best despite losing your dad. They will be happy that you have that kind of will power. I always knew that you did.
I am deep in the grading pile. I did just grade a very good paper though, so that was nice.
I will be able to respond tomorrow just fine, I think. However, the next few days after that are going to be hit or miss. We are flying up to Ohio for my niece's college graduation. Usually I can get onto 7 Cups when we are away, but sometimes that is harder. @SweetPea321
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That's ok, Vase. You enjoy your special occasion with your family.
I over ate this afternoon, so I didn't make my calorie goal today. I am disappointed in myself. I want to be successful, but I need that pill to help decrease my appetite. Maybe it's not working?
Today I called my step mom and we had a heart to heart. She told me I was welcome to come visit anytime and that she loved me. My Dad's Celebration of Life will be held on June 2nd and we'll be going up there the day before to spend the night. He's going to be cremated.
Have a fun visit with your family and safe travels, Vase 🤗
I am glad that you had a good conversation with your step mom! That is such an important relationship. It sounds like your father's memorial service will be before my mother-in-law's. Hers isn't until June 10th.
I am going to keep saying this. The great thing about diets is that you wipe the slate clean each morning. Worry less about what happened today and focus on tomorrow. Find good things to chew on when you get hungry that fill you up but don't add the extra calories. You are going to get better at this as long as you keep trying.
This is probably a stupid example, but I am really bad about cleaning my teeth. It probably is related to dental trauma, but I definitely don't brush and floss after each meal. I have had tons of dental work as a result. For years, I was lucky if I brushed once a day. Then it got to the point where I did remember almost every day. But then they suggested I really needed an electric brush because I wasn't doing a good enough job. So I have been able to up it to that. And since my last appointment I have managed to floss almost every day. Will I be able to continue with all of that? Maybe so maybe not. But I do know that each day I do succeed that I am better off than if I didn't try at all.
So for you it is each meal and doing the best you can. I am here to cheer you on.
Tomorrow night is the one that is diciest in terms of my trip because we have late flights. But I am going to try. It is good to keep a routine when I can. @SweetPea321
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I hope you had a good flight. I have to push myself to brush my teeth as well. Perhaps I'll get us electric toothbrushes when I can too.
Yesterday I printed an 8 x 10 photo of my Dad and bought a table frame and sent it to my step mom. I also sent a mother's day card with $100 dollars in it. She will no longer have my Dad's ss income so I plan on giving her a big money card when I get my $2600 back pay. A thousand to pay my Mom back and a thousand to help her in her time of need. Though I may send only $700 because I have some credit to pay off.
Life is good today. My daughter did well in school, so I bought her a game she had been anticipating. All is well in Minnesota
