I'm a mess (vent)
I'm 110% a mess right now. I'm tired all the time and it takes all of my energy to get through the day. I'm taking all honors classes and I'm doing the bare minimum for all of my work because I have no motivation or energy. I feel like I'm drowning. Each day that I feel disconnected from class I'm getting farther and farther behind and it's going to catch up to me soon. The problem is that I am getting help but it's not doing anything. I'm on meds and seeing a therapist but if anything, I've only gotten worse since then. Some of my friends have tried to be supportive when they found out about my self harm or when I had trouble with restrictive eating habits, but it's getting to a point that my friends are done with dealing with me and I have no drive to fix things. My parents say they want to help but whenever I'm showing any type of symptom of depression or anxiety they just get annoyed (which is understandable because I can be really irrational and they don't understand that but still) all I want to do is sleep or die or something. I don't know what to do. I don't know what will help me or how to get that help. Aahh