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NebulousCoffee
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PathStep 84 Compassion hearts36 Forum posts31 Forum upvotes37 Current upvotes37 Age GroupAdult Last activeFebruary, 2024 Member sinceJune 21, 2015
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I'm Emma. Hello!
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I'm a mess (vent)
Depression Support / by NebulousCoffee
Last post
 October 27th, 2016
...See more I'm 110% a mess right now. I'm tired all the time and it takes all of my energy to get through the day. I'm taking all honors classes and I'm doing the bare minimum for all of my work because I have no motivation or energy. I feel like I'm drowning. Each day that I feel disconnected from class I'm getting farther and farther behind and it's going to catch up to me soon. The problem is that I am getting help but it's not doing anything. I'm on meds and seeing a therapist but if anything, I've only gotten worse since then. Some of my friends have tried to be supportive when they found out about my self harm or when I had trouble with restrictive eating habits, but it's getting to a point that my friends are done with dealing with me and I have no drive to fix things. My parents say they want to help but whenever I'm showing any type of symptom of depression or anxiety they just get annoyed (which is understandable because I can be really irrational and they don't understand that but still) all I want to do is sleep or die or something. I don't know what to do. I don't know what will help me or how to get that help. Aahh
Seasonal Depression??
Depression Support / by NebulousCoffee
Last post
 October 22nd, 2019
...See more I'm realizing that my emotions seem to vary between seasons. I feel like my depression affects me year round, but it gets worse in the winter. In the colder seasons I feel more apathetic and isolated, but in the warmer ones I'm more emotional. Could this be season affective depression or is it just that my depression manifests differently throughout the year?
Do these sound like disordered eating habits?
Eating Disorder Support / by NebulousCoffee
Last post
 February 22nd, 2016
...See more There is no way that I meet any of the actual criteria for diagnosis, but I don't think my relationship with food is healthy. There are some days that I eat fairly normally, but I always end up feeling really guilty and regretting it in the evening. I have fasted a few times and I usually restrict, but I never stick to it very closely. I don't think I have lost any weight (or if I have, its not much), but I feel like its not normal to be skipping multiple meals a day. I'm at a technically normal weight. When I was younger, I was bullied for my weight and I've been extremely self concious since then. Most of the time I feel really fat despite the fact that I am at a healthy weight. Its gotten to a point that my self esteem relies on how thin I look. I don't know if this even is an eating disorder though because I'm not sure if I have lost weight and I'm not restricting enough to really lose much anyway. I know that no one can try to diagnose me online like this, but I just want to know if this is something I should be worried about or try to get help for.
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