Happiness... Is it temporary?
I was happy for the past few days. Even i cannot believe it. At fist I thought, I was just not sad. But no, it was different. That feeling of warmth, contentment, peace.. That suddenly mornings were not as bad afterall. That light feeling. It was very unfamiliar, yet so.. so.. I cant find words to describe. Amazing? Awesome? Those words are not enough.
But then suddenly. At one quiet moment... The sadness... The loneliness... The hurt... The darkness... Those chest cramps... That awful feeling you've been desperately running away from but can't seem to shake it off.. Its all starting to creep back. Just like that... Once again, you are back inside the cage you've built for yourself. Cold, dark and alone.
Why? Why can't I just be happy? Why would I even be happy, when I would just feel this way again? I was so afraid, I knew at that moment that happiness is slipping away... But still I cannot prevent it. I cannot hold on from it. Was it just a glimpse of a fantasy..? A happiness that is temporary?