Feeling worthless with higher standards
It seems like whenever I try my best at doing something, it isn't good enough and when I try even harder it still doesn't make a difference.
One example is art. I plan to be a professional animator and game designer, so it's pretty much means the world to me. However, I always get the feeling that it's not good enough and no matter how hard I try, it never is. It always needs to be better. Another example is with school. I was homeschooled from 2nd to 7th grade, after which I went to public school in the 8th grade. I was lucky enough to have some old friends there but once 9th came along, everyone moved away. Almost in the 11th grade now with no friends to turn to. I'm not talkative, just a chill genderfluid person who plays video games and draws all day. I have yet to meet anyone who is remotely the same. My grades began to drop from the sheer stress of a school environment and caused major anxiety issues for me. To the point where I might "lock up" and not be able o write or properly solve questions. My parents tell me to bring up my grades, which isn't bad, but they don't seem to acknowledge the fact that I'm trying as hard as I can.
