Falling Back In

I was diagnosed with severe depression when I was a freshman in high school. The only way anybody found out was because my friend at the time encouraged me to reach out to our school counselor, which when I mentioned suicidal thoughts, the counselor called my parents and from there I was forced to talk out my feelings in front of multiple adults. When we got home that day they basically claimed that I shouldn't be depressed/they don't understand why I'm depressed because my life is "good." After that is when they had me start going to therapy, which I despised every second of. Fast forward to today, I've been slowly falling back into depression the past few months and it keeps getting worse as the days go by. I always have to act like I'm happy around the people in my life because as far as they're concerned, I have no reason to be depressed. Most days I want to lay in bed and just not get up, suicidal thoughts creeping in as well. I can feel myself growing more irritable as well, usually going outside to escape the noise or listening to music on high.