@samd136
Hey there. First, I want to say how much I feel for you, being in that really low place. You didn't share much, but from what you did share, it sounds like you're dealing with an incredible amount of stuff. Feeling like everything bad that happens is your fault has to be one of the most isolating experiences, and I can't blame you for wanting to be done with it. I wish I could say or do something to change your situation and pull you out of the low place you're in. All I can do is tell you that you're strong for coming here and sharing some of what's going on, and I'm really rooting for you. Try to hang in there.
:)