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@maggiemay1410 Hello Im 15 and I read your story.Im really sorry for what your going through right now, It must be really hard for you. Though it may be your bulmina which is causing your depression. If the body does not receive proper nutrition it is unable to think straight and be productive. I have no experience with eating disorders but I think the first step to take is to take care of your yourself and start eating normally. Maybe next morning start with a light break fast then a small healthy lunch and make your way down to a simple dinner ( maybe almonds and milk, I mean my unhealthy self eats cookies but anyways). Water is essential and try light exercise. START OFF SLOWLY AND STEADY so your body can adapt.It will take time. Im going through depression myself and I honestly feel like giving up on life sometimes and cry almost everyday

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@maggiemay1410 I suffer from my own demon, but you have 2 to contend with. We've never met yet I know your stronger than you think you are. And you have to hold onto that belief because no matter what your age you're trying your best and that's all anyone can do. Im sorry that your parents aren't has supportive as what you need. I'm my early life I suffered with an eating disorder that turned out to be linked with my GAD but I never knew that til 12 years later. Unfortunately one will often feed from the other. I can't speak for you situation but my eating disorder was linked with control. The more out of control my life felt the worse my eating disorder got I was so ashamed of my condition no one knew my mum thought I was just a fickle girl that was more fickle as a teenager. it's wasn't until I saw a therapist when I went to university I started to understand that my eating, not eating or being sick was a way I released the pain my anxiety caused. Something my body could react to when mentally I had no control over the people and circumstances in my life. Set very small goals each day of eating food that has something positive associated with it. Whether that's because of a happy memory or it's something that you enjoy every time you achieve that goal you should reward yourself, movies books whatever is your thing. Slowly but surely that's how I built up a healthier mindset with food. Don't give up seeking prof. Help or maybe local support groups?

Hoping the best for you. Hugs (((((((())))))))) this is a big tight bear hug for you. As long as it's wanted. 🌞🍀🌼🌸🌹🌻😊

@MaggieMay

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1) Please live far from home; far from. mom dad, Choose suitable place for yourself..if you don't feel like to go, Still go And leave your home,

FEW DAYS AGO i tried to go to live somewhere Far from home, i decided to choose place But i didn't find any flat for me and come back to home after wasting my money , time.. Reason :- i felt very anxious, nervous because i was alone, because i never had alone in life situation to tackle them, imagine me in future after 5 years; Much worse than now..MaggieMay don't know NoodleJune, Do you want me to see silly, anxious, hesitated in future? ; Surely NO, Do i want the same for you?; Definitely NOT, Remember this slogan : "The more uncomfortable we feel from things, More do them again and again; Makes us a better person"

2) Make yourself wise ; WISDOM is everything, There is no difference in 20 yr old or 30 or 50 or 80, If all having same wisdom ,They all are same, How to become wise? Seek knowledge; i know it's tough in 37, you want someone shoulder to say things But with whomsoever you want shoulder?; it's your choice, You can't share yourself with roadside stalker, We need understanding of people to get them To talk things; To share things, Until you decide your choice, You will be weak for life Which i don't want, So keep learning ,seek knowledge, no I'm not talking about bullshit books, YouTube is good , Wisdom is important Will help you to get your desired shoulder , Who will be yours (learn psychology, body language, it will take a month, Will help you in ghost dimensions also)

3) Do exercise everyday till you get abs, yup ABS are necessary, exercise secretes several chemicals Whivh make us feel good ; if you be successful in getting abs, it means you hardworked alot; Which will show on your face, body; You knows How people judge us, Doesn't matter if we are cat or dog Should get abs...Eat good, eating pizza in lunch time alone vs eating tomatoes in alone vs eating pizza with friends vs eating pizza with colleagues Is Different thing. .Choose wisely..Drink water, what kind of water? , How much water? When to drink water? How should drink? Should learn ...it affects life,, i know i know Sounds bit crazy But habits are habits I can't do anything...habits make someone leader Someone worker, Nope water ettitquetes can't make leader, Was my way to say,

DO 1ST first then 2nd