One word to describe how I feel today is....

disposable

@Laura

Clean after a shower.

@Laura

Worried

Happy, and on top of the world. Day 7 of vacay and I'm finally relaxed. I'm so happy that I haven't even needed to color in a coloring book, a coping technique for stress. Today, I've also made lp's for work preparations. :) It's going well and I'm getting sleep.

Lucky, because it is the first day in eight that I don't have to go to work! YAY!

@Laura

Depressed

Conflicted, though I really don't know.

It is autism acceptance month and alike anyone else I know that I am human and make mistakes like anyone else and I hold myself accountable when I do and heaven knows others do as well.

What I wonder is if it is just me or if other autistic people face the same where when you screwup are you forever unforgiven for your screwup(s) and thus forever judged and seen as garbage by those impacted by the aforementioned screwup or not?!

I really hope it isn't just me but either way it isn't fair. Autistic people don't deserve to be instantly dehumanized for heaven forbid being human.

if I was the type of person that felt no remorse, shame or guilt over screwups then being unforgiven would be fair no matter how bad it hurts and in my caseI when I mess up I usually feel all 3 in abundance.

@Laura

I feel like a piece of sh*t.

NErvous

f'in relieved