One word to describe how I feel today is....

Productive

Crap

Depressed worthless

Hurt, sad, and ashamed

Ending up COVID positive really showed me who has proven it, who truly is a friend or best friend,

has also showed who no longer gives a shit and sadly has also showed who wouldn't have given a shit had the virus killed me. :(

2 who I once considered best friends are now in the latter category. I honestly wouldn't be surprised had they celebrated if the virus had taken me 😞

That's how much contempt it seems they have for me and how much they have unforgiven me because of my screw ups 😞

Optimistic

@Laura

anxious

For me, Meepy. This was supposed to be a nice day. It's a short work shift and I get to get peppers for the garden after. I also got coffee and since it's a cheat day a donut. But since I woke up I've been feeling really depressed and I just crying.

I don't need a response unless you really want to I just really felt the need to get this out.

unwanted

Drained

Done. Extremely unregulated.