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One word to describe how I feel today is....
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feeling half π as i'm thinking whether to have a glimpse of him or not i miss "him" i'm not supposed to say that as he's a married man as i accepted the fact between us we're just friends .
I feel as if I'm alone. All of my friends never have time for me. I dont know what to do or who to talk to . I'm very stressed out. Someone please help. I'm having trouble sleeping.
I am feeling some relief from the intense spinal pain issues I have been plagued with for months.
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Feeling heartbroken with grief I miss my father so much. π©
@bgdave
I'm sorry to hear that Dave. I never got to meet my father, he died 2 months before I was born. If I could have one wish it would be just to sit down and have a conversation with him. My mother was a different story, she died right in front of me. And that's the really the only big loss I've ever experienced. It was incredibly hard....
So I have some understanding of what you must be going through. You are welcome to talk about it with me, only if you feel comfortable doing so. There are also listener's on this site that would be happy to help. So please don't think you are alone. Nobody has to be alone here....
Stay strong and take care pls π
@Tigger76rty
Thank you Michael,
I am sorry you never had a father to be there for you growing up. My condolences for the loss of your mother, l too know the terrible pain of loosing my mother. She dies from ALS at 62 when I was just 40. I am 56 now and alone in the state I needed to come try and start over due to financial crisis and a failed long term relationship. I lived in Southern California for 40+ yrs and am now struggling alone in Utah with a permanent spinal pain condition. Life feels like hell now without having a loving woman in my life nor any real close friends I can lean on why I struggle with depression and loneliness. Life feels harder than it ever has. It is also difficult to learn ro live life all over being sober for 4+ years. I am so sad and lonely right now. Fortunately I was finally able to get some temporary pain relief from a procedure called Rhizotomy ablation nerve branch block on my right side. I will be getting the left side done July 12th.
@behave
Hey Dave,
Im sorry to hear about your physical pain, not much I can do to help you there. And truly, I do understand your pain. Maybe not physically so much, but mentally sure. I can see why you would be lonely and down sometimes. It happens to the best of us, so they say. There are a lot of people suffering in silence. I know how much the mind can make oneself a prisoner. The quiet voices are often the strongest. Anytime you want to write, or have a chat just drop me a message. My time and friendship I can give you. And I'm guessing we might have a thing or two in common. We both write unusually long messages for one lol But then I actually enjoy writing, it's a shame a few more people didn't feel the same. We might not all be so lonely right?... I'm a little eccentric but old souls like us usually are. I'm 42, and just a few thousand miles across the pond in England. The Midlands, Warwickshire actually. My girlfriend is from Connecticut though. Hartford. And at times like this trust me, I miss her, I miss her a lot....
If it wasn't for her buddy, i wouldn't be sitting here right now I can tell you that. And I can certainly relate to how you miss female company. To be honest I get along with women better on a friendship level. But Mel is a special case so I really have any feel friends anymore. I'm convolessing at the moment, doctors orders. I pushed myself all out of shape and pretty much worked myself into a meltdown. Long distance relationships can be tough and certainly not for the faint of heart. But after 20 years of looking for my soulmate, and never expecting to find her, I did. And if it can happen to a guy like me it can happen to anyone. 4+ years sober Dave?, that's pretty cool mate keep going. I'm finding out the hard way that a healthy living can help the mind. My problem has always been sleep. If I get more than four hours a nite thats a good nite. It's a mixture of insomnia and some pretty messed up dreams. But I won't dwell on that. I'm just trying to get myself back into shape body and mind. I lost lot of weight due to poor diet. Not that I was ever anything than slim before. But I'd be amazed if I was 140lbs soaking wet, and I'm 6 foot 2! So yeah I get to eat whatever I like and that's always a plus, so people tell me anyway lol Sometimes feels like a chore to me, but I do enjoy food. Music is a big thing for too. I like music a lot it's good food for the soul no matter what the mood. Right now it's pretty quiet.And pretty boring. But my girl is coming over in a few months so I'm looking forward to that. Last year it was my turn to go there, and it was awesome. I've travelled a lot around Europe, but the state's had eluded me until four years ago. Whadda you gonna do when your soul mate is on another continent? Other than go and get her....
Anyway, this is starting to feel more like a monologue rather than a big reply, so don't be a stranger. And take it easy π
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