One word to describe how I feel today is....

Depressed, hackled and back-stabbed.

Good tired

Tired

Lonely. Painful. Exhausted. Depressed.

confused and tired

idiotic and human

Sad and ashamed

when you realize that the main reason the group of friends you were a part of split up or anyone chose to leave is because of you.

There were 8 of us back in 01, including myself.

2 are of unknown status, 1 still supports what our group stood for. 2 left for sure and we are no longer in any contact, the remaining two I believe still support as well but other than to offer their condolences for my mom’s passing, aren’t on speaking terms with me at all. So essentially the majority left because of me.

Hard not to feel like a giant piece of crap.

Empty

wary, scattered

A burden