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Hello. I am new to this and am not quite sure how this works but I suppose I will tell my story here because I'm not quite sure where else I am supposed to. My name is Grace and I am from Washington. My parents love each other and love me very much. When I was 7 years old I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes which is a chronic disease, meaning it never goes away. When I was in 7thgrade, I started to distance myself. My parents thought this was simply me becoming a teenager and growing up. I started seeing a therapist in 7th grade but I just lied to her because I saw no point in therapy and she couldn't seem to find what was wrong. In 8th grade, I wanted to kill myself. I hated everything and felt so grey. A storm cloud descended on my brain and clouded all of my thoughts and I couldn't breathe or sleep. My parents took my to apsychiatristpsychiatristpsychiatristpsychiatristthere I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. I am currently on meds and have been for about a year. I was fine for a while but now I feel as if I am just where I was last year. I now rely on alcohol to make all my problems disappear momentarily and the more time goes on, the more irrational mybehaviorbecomes. I can't breathe anymore and I have such highs and lows. That is me.

Im nog doing too good right now honestly . Im a homeless trans* teen. Its been really hard and im thinking of going back to the ward. I wish things could be better. Schizophrenia sucks

Welcome everyone, I hope everything gets better guys. We love you

Hello,

Where to start... [WARNING TRIGGERS MAY FOLLOW]

I'm 43, and have been dealing with depression for 20+ years now. About 20 years ago I put the barrel of a shotgun in my mouth and almost pulled the trigger. Something at that time told me not to though and I ended up spending a week in a hospital. Fast forward to about the last year or so and the depression has come back and with it it brought its friends anxiety and possibility adult ADHD.

And here I am, looking for comfort from people that have been where I am. I do plan on seeking out professional help as soon as time allows, don't get me wrong. There are just times I need someone to talk to that understands what its like. My wife has never had to deal with mental illness, so sometimes, although she tried her best, its just not the same.

Anyway I don't know what else to say... so Thank you for your time.

Warning you now:

I'm not perfect. Not pretty. Just me.

I am 19. I've battled depression and anxiety since a very young age. Of course the mother abandonment thing started all of that when she left at 5 with her boyfriend who beat me and my family. I grew up constantly moving and in the care of my grandmother who was battling cancer. I want to say I wasn't really bad or should've been concerned until I hit 16. Weed. Alcohol. Another round of alcohol. And then finally the gateway to my arch enemy X. And to make it all better. I was already deep in depression with my grandma so soon to pass. I decided to keep it going as long as possible and finally a year later quit. Not without starting up my cutting habit... That was to feel something since I couldn't be feel happy anymore. Now I have a career started and life would be perfect if I could enjoy it. I'm emptyand hollow and can't seem to find any light. So I am here to talk about and see if with the right amount of questions that someone can help me hit what is the real nerve and the real problem since I feel I've lost who I am.

Hi everyone,

My name is Rachel, i'm 19, and have been officially diagnosed with bipolar depression for about a year now. I struggle with family issues, self esteem issues, and obviously the underlying medical issues that come with a mental illness, but I am here to learn from others and to also keep myself sane, which 7COT has really helped with lately and for that I am thankful

Hi, im Aarika and I've been struggling with sever depression caused by a chemical imbalance. It was triggered by my grandfather died when I was nine. He battled cancer for 4 years. thats also around the time I lost my faith and when i started self harming. I was always bullied and I would talk to my grandpa about it. Without him I was lost, still am. I'm 15 now and still cant function correctly. 6 years and still alive no matter howmany times I've thought about suicide.

Im new to this not new to depression, I suffer from this everyday being sad and not even knowing why, its the worst filling in the world, i went to the dr he gave me citalopram 20mg it worked for awhile then all of a suden the last few days it seem to stop. Its so hard if not imposable to figure out why thats my story

My nameis Sara. I've been dealing with my depression for over 3 years. It hasn't been getting any better, only worse, and at this point, I'm not entirely sure it will. I've heard all the cliches from everyone and I'm really sick of them. I just wish I knew why I am this way.

I've had my depression for about 7years now andit's only gotten worse, i have a plethora of other issues but my depression was the first to rear it's head. It's like Dexter said 'my dark passenger' except it's my depression instead of a need to kill. It's almost like this thing i can rely on, the constant in my life when all else is going wrong my depression rises andfalls almost predictably which is scary.