Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I feel like my heart is going to jump out of my chest
I feel exhausted and like giving up
I feel drained and tired and I want to talk about what's bugging me but it makes me so angry and the problem might be returning home and I don't know how to avoid her.
I feel totally and absolutely worthless, to put it short in one sentence. I'm scared of whichever opportunity destiny will take to show me that again today.
Nevertheless, I'm proud of you all, that you have the bravery to write down how you actually feel. That was a big issue for me a long time.
I was told by a girl today that the only part of me that she'd need is the part that helped her feel better. That none of my other qualities matter. Today sucked.
like I'm not important
I'm going to fail my child, the only person/thing/happiness in my life, And I am ruining her life. I feel angry, angry with mostly myself... and at depression, social anxiety, my low ambition, and my mom. I'm not an angry teenager. I am watching her become less and less of the woman Who raised me. The hurtful things she says, her depression, no family will help. I'm angry my daughter will never know the woman I called 'Momma' and I'm so tired. I'm so tired of this life. I feel like I should have given my daughter up for adoption, To be with a normal family.. But I was selfish. And I hate myself for not giving her the chance to not have to be subjected to me, a mother to depressed to get out of bed some days, a mother who can't even look at her because I feel so guilty. Sorry, first time post. Still trying o figure this app out. Peace and love to you all.
@SoItBegins0118 take it from a mother who gave up four children, the grass isnt always greener on the other side. 20 years later my oldest girl found me and we talked about her childhood and her now. She was three when i gave her up. I found out that she develuped anorexia, just like me. She had bad depresion, just like me. She had cut and tryed suicide, just like me. What could i have offerd her? A mother who understood what she was going through. The ppl who adopted her knew nothing about mental illness and viewed it as some catchable disease. My mother was all those things and i hated her. Not because she was sick but because she was in denial and could never say sorry and never showed love and never told me why she didn't. As ling as you tell your child how special she is and apologize when appropriate and acknowledge her pain she will love and respect you. I wish you could get some support. Somone to help you when you cant. Please keep fighting because it sounds like this may be hereditary and when she goes through this it would be really good if you know the way out to support her.
I don't know who I am and I don't know how I'm supposed to be whenever I Cry always try to think of the worst to get all those tears out because maybe if I cry enough I won't have any more tears left and I won't have to cry again. I'm so full of shit like sometimes I ask God why did you make me the way you did, why can't you make me happy person that everyone loves, why did you have to make me this way, the ugly way. Who am I?
I feel like dying. I would kill myself if I had the energy to do so. I'm just so tired.
@georgiaaigroeg I'm glad you're to tired!! You're cared about!! I understand the feeling. But tomorrow will be a new day, a better day!!!! :)
@georgiaaigroeg no its not a good plan.
Things can get better. I understand the lows I go through it. Well my lows.
I hope you are OK. Be nice if you msg back. Just a word.
It's hard but don't let them grind you down.
Stay strong
I feel angry and all I want it punch a wall
@Lovely1313 That's maybe good. I say punch a pillow - that way you won't hurt your fist!! :)
