Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

Honestly, I feel spiritually tired, unmotivated but motivated. An extroverted introvert... I fucking hate it.. My life is moving forward but it feels like everything is crashing.. It feels like everyone is becoming distant.. The woman I love has fallen out of love, or she wasn't in live to begin with. Idk. My mental problem are becoming more prominent.. I just want to be numb but i need to feel.... The forest is dark and lonely, she's my fire but the light seems to be moving away, making the shadows of my mind stir.

Crappy. I went to work though and even made a coworker laugh so I guess that's a plus.

A lot I think about the past, and think what could've been. It's a constant thing and I feel like I can't continue on living now because I feel like I'm in a daze. I constantly feel like I'm looking in at my life and not really living my life to the fullest. I'm always tired and not here..

Sad, upset, angry, lonely, lost, alone. Just to name a few.

My scares are starting to fade, I feel kinda sad that I won't see them anymore. In my head they are the proof that I was in so much pain and it was real, without them it's like nothing happened and everything I say about my pain is a lie because the is no proof it ever happening

I am feeling okay today. I forced myself to do the dishes and some laundry and now I am drinking some coffee and practicing mindfulness. Im on day 4 of no crying, which feels good. I just hope my thoughts don't turn negative today.

I feel like shit and all I can do is feel it.

Terrible....

Nothing at all; not even empty.

CORBIN FROM VIRGINIA WHERE ARE YOU?????