Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
Today I feel extremely anxious, I couldn't get a full or calm nights sleep yesterday and now I can't seem to get out of bed. I'm not optimistic about today, instead I'm just full of dread. School work has been left till last minute because I've used up my school break by sleeping in most days and ignoring chores. Now I just cannot function, I stare a blank space for hours and I can't seem to move. The obvious solution would be to get on with some work, but I have no passion or motivation to even get out of bed or do anything productive. What's the point? Sorry that this post isn't very happy or optimistic but it's how I currently feel.
Today, I feel the worst I've ever felt sense I've moved.
I feel lonely because I feel people talk to me out of pity, they feel sorry for me so they try and make an effort to talk to me. Like my bf. He didn't do this before, he would hardly text me and didnt make an effort to hangout with me. but because I brought it to light yesterday that it is a one sided relationship, he is texting me without me having to text him first. He is asking to make plans without me having to do it first. But it is because I told him he doesn't make an effort. If someone wanted to see you and spend time with you they would. He clearly doesn't since I had to tell him. Things like this make me incredibly upset and even more lonely
I feel like a terrible friend. I feel like screaming. I feel like sobbing. I feel like I'm losing a battle with myself.
Today I feel different. Still wondering how to be better and move forward in a healthy way
Today was my first day back at school after two weeks.... It ultimately sucked. I hardly ate anything today.. I had 2 graham crackers.. 3 vegetarian "chicken" nuggets... And when I got home... Applesauce. I baked a cake yesterday..but since I've given up junk food for the next 27 days..I can't have any. On top of being hungry... I had an extremely off day.. Couldn't focus on anything.. And I just reakized how much nonsense can't from my mouth today... For the sake of my friends it's gonna be a relatively quiet day...
I argued with one of the only people outside of school who puts up with me still and more he's mad at me.
Times like these make me consider talking to people who don't actually care about me.. I just hate being so alone..
I'm sorry about this random post....
******tomorrow is gonna be relatively quiet
Right now... I feel so sunk and alone, I am so sad and full of pain, I'm 16 my ex boyfriend got me pregnant with twins and told me I was a useless woman and is was all my fault, he wanted me to get rid of the "little mistakes" (as he would call them) and I obviously wasn't ready but he broke my heart. Hearing those words flow from the mouth of the boy I thought was worth so much was... Devastating. I had a miscarriage of my twins in my bed and it's been 6 months and I'm lying in bed next to my new boyfriend who is and unbelievable person, who is kind and caring and yet I'm crying... I'm apologizing to my own body and the life of the little ones I lost. Am I stupid? Am I just being pathetic? Does anyone have any advice how I can get over a painful thing that happened to me?!?! :(
I feel so incredibly drained today. Work, internship, my parents everything is getting to me. I just want to isolate and cry.
I've been through so many things that are supposed to "help" me. I truly believe that this is never going to end. It really won't.
@LovePom
It's so easy to not see the light at the end of the tunnel; depression makes it very easy to believe that there will be no better in life, that this is all life is meant to be.
It's not going to be an easy path, not at all. But it is possible to overcome it. Every day might not be good, but there will be good in every day. I promise you that with every fiber of my being.
Today I feel ashamed of myself and the choices I've been making for the past few years. I'm committing suicide in slow motion and lately it's been not so slow..i lost my little sister to a drug overdose 3 1/2 years ago and I've fucking overdosed ten times since then and I hate myself everyday for shaming her memory.
Being a survivor from my own attempt several years back you have to try and let the pain out threw another way. I am not going to lie I battle my own demons on a daily bases but you are here for a reason. Have you ever stopped to think that maybe you can help someone else out battering the same pain you carry? Your lil sister may not be here on earth with you but you can stop the things your doing and start seeing life in a different way. I'm new on here and I've read a lot of stories but this one truly opened my eyes to my own pain I endure. Hugs many many hugs. You can do this. You can go forward .
I'm not going to tell you it'll be okay because sometimes I know that does more harm than good. Have you thought about rehab? Make it the MOST important thing in your life right now. Keep your head up never give up
@Xeaclare
This took a lot of strength to share, and it's easy to see how raw the emotion behind this is. Today, I do not feel ashamed of you.
Do know that you are very important, to your friends, your family, all of the people you've interacted with; you are absolutely important to them. This may be your way of feeling your grief; maybe it runs in the family. Either way, if you notice that it's become an issue in your daily life, and that you want to change, I encourage you to seek out the proper resources to do so; recovery would be hard, but losing you would be harder.
You are not shaming her memory; however, don't go down that same path. There is hope, you are strong beyond belief. And it's not going to be a straight line to recovery; it's going to be hard, it's going to take a lot out of you. But if it's what you ultimately would like to do, set a goal, and let's make it happen.
I'm sending all of my love your way; please remember to keep us updated.