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Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

Laura December 2nd, 2014

Let us know in 1-3 sentences. Post every day!

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Hickstjo August 23rd, 2015

I have been weaning off of my anti depressants cause I have no insurance to have them filled. I just took my last of the lexapro that I had last night. Afraid I will not be able to handle the ups and Downs.

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Celaeno August 29th, 2015

Hello, lovely @Hickstjo! How are you feeling today? Are you completely out of your meds? Let me know how are you doing. I care about you.

Love!

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Celaeno August 25th, 2015

I feel hopeful, despite my low mood, and it is thanks to you, lovelies.

I am so careful not to shatter this fragile feeling.

littlesadcutebunny August 25th, 2015

I feel like shooting myself in the head

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Celaeno August 25th, 2015

I am sorry, @anxiousandepressed, that you are in a such pain that your brain gives you this dreadful vision. It must be really hard for you. I want to hug you tightly and draw all of your pain from your mind, heart, and body, so you could feel at rest, even if only for a little while.

Can I make somehow this passing minutes a bit better for you? Would you like some kind of a distraction? Maybe soothing sounds? Show? Or a song? ? A cute live animal feed? A game? A relaxing video? Or would you like to talk to me? I'm not a listener, but still I care about you. I'd love to ease your heartache, help you carry this unbearable weight, because you don't deserve it.

Sending soft pillows, a blanket, a bright night sky and stars for you to admire. Hugs!

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littlesadcutebunny August 25th, 2015

ur really sweet and it's good to read all these nice words when I'm so down. thank you ❤️

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Lemontime20 August 27th, 2015

I've been reading a few of your replies and you are literally the sweetest person!

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kd0695 August 25th, 2015

I am happy. I don't want to waste a single minute of my life being sad.

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Celaeno August 25th, 2015

@kd0695k, that's great! Pass the good vibes on ^^

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bravestwarrior August 26th, 2015

Like I wanna go to sleep and never wake up.

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Celaeno August 26th, 2015

I'm sorry you feel that way, @bravestwarrior. What a lovely username, by the way. I bet it properly captures your spirit ^^

Is there something particular on your mind, some worry which wears you down? Or is it the "blah day", a day when it seems depression is taking over your world? Is it possible for you to consider to let go and let yourself sleep and rest? Sometimes sleeping through is helpful, when tomorrows are better places than todays.

Sending you lots of love!

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bravestwarrior August 27th, 2015

Thank you very much! Being a little bit braver is something I aspire to very dearly.

I feel like I'm disassociating and its just this numbness that passes through all over my body. I want to feel something, but the only thing I can feel is this sense of hurt and abandonment. I've been trying to sleep it off though, and hopefully it'll be more manageable by tomorrow.

Again, thank you for your care and concern! It means a lot to me. I hope you have a wonderful day, and stay happy and safe!

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welcometomyworld August 27th, 2015

i struggle with all the crap that is comsuming my life i try my hardest to help other people because then i feel i am of some use but deep in my heart im fed up and cant handle it maybe the meds aint working or maybe its something else i just wish things could be a hell of a lot better

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Celaeno August 27th, 2015

@welcometomyworld, so sorry to hear you're feeling low. It must be very hard for you, but please don't be hard on yourself. You're doing great, believe me, just be gentle and patient. You need this now more than ever, because depression makes you vulnerable. Maybe your meds need more time to start working? It takes a while to feel a difference, but it's worth a wait.

I'm glad that you are reaching out to others. It's brave and kind, and it speaks volumes of your worth. You're brain is lying to you - you may feel worthless, but it does not mean it's a fact. Did you look at our community self-guide to challenge this thoughts? We also have a forum thread about it, where we support and help each other in creating new thinking habits. And there's also a handy, totally free website which helps you understand CBT.

Sending you loads and loads of hugs! You deserve it for fighting so greatly ^^

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LaynieJWest5661 August 27th, 2015

Sad

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Celaeno August 27th, 2015

@LaynieJWest5661, is this would help you?

*hugs tightly*

Let me know how are you feeling now. Love!

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Stormie92 August 27th, 2015

Crappy.

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Celaeno August 27th, 2015

@Stormie92, excuse me, can I just...?

*waves viciously with a wooden sword to protect you from the Monsters of Awfulness*

You can rest now, for a little while. I've got your back.

Love!

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queenyola August 27th, 2015

Worthless... feel like ima have a brwak down i dont wnaa deal with this pain no.more.. 😒

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Celaeno August 27th, 2015

Dearest @queenyola, I'm so sorry to hear you are in such despair. It must be really hard for, constantly keep pushing through, when you feel like a million broken pieces.

But it's okay, you're feelings okay. Your emotions are valid. You have all the right to feel dreadful. You don't deserve this suffering. You're too lovely, and kind, and brilliant, and funny, for this void of darkness.

I'm here, I care about you. I want to hug you and whisper comforting words to ease this hurtful times for you. You are so strong, so brave to reach out, when your brain screams at you, that you are not worth human attention. Let me tell you about your strength when you feel trapped, about your hopes and dreams which are fulfilled in your future. You can do it, you can make it through, my lovely and beautiful friend. Just be gentle with yourself. Drink some water, sleep a bit, watch a TV show, listen to your favourite songs - any act of self-care is a treasured blanket fort where you can hide behind soft pillows. It's good enough, and so are you.

Be kind with yourself. Love!

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lostdragon4444 August 27th, 2015

Really detached and tired, i mean i wanna get better i just really dont know how. I guess i am also frustrated.

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Celaeno August 27th, 2015

Oh, yes, the frustration of slow recovery.. I know this feeling all too well, @lostdragon4444. In fact I'm struggling with it right now.

Time heals, it's true, but it feels useless to just feel awful and sit idle. So what to do when you are feeling awful and don't want to do anything? You can learn how to self-care. You can read about depression, to discover weaknesses of your foe. You can support others in their struggles. You can feel the sun on your face. You can focus on sleeping consistently and drinking enough water. You can listen to songs about same struggles as yours. You can watch movies to see how others overcome them.

Any small action towards being gentle with yourself is a right direction to take. And even if small, it's enough.

Love!

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