Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
Like i want to give up, I've been going through a lot over the past several years and i think its finally catching up to me, i used to suffer with bad depression and was on medication for a year for another issue but at the moment since 2011 I've been having problems with my spine and legs I'm in incredible amounts of pain all the time and over the years i get flare ups where the pain increases and i can't move and end up in hospital for a week or so but after every incident it never goes back to how it was before, i started using one crutch to aid my walking and then two crutches, then a wheelchair and now i'm completely bed bound i feel like i have nothing left I'm only 21 and i can't leave the house at all
@adventurousMaple8149, you shared your story with us, full of sorrow and anguish. I feel sad and pity - not you - but the life order you had been force into. Struggling through all of your waking hours with your own body seems unfair. And still, you are doing it.
I am amazed by how much you endure. You are a superhero who fights day after day, with such amounts of pain I have a hard time to imagine. You have every right to feel tired and discouraged, and I just want to tell you that you are doing such a great job. You are brave and strong beyond your years and I am so proud of you.
I want to collect your sufferings in cups and give it to the sea, so your pain would be washed away, but I can't. So instead I am writing these words to you to say: you're an incredible person. No matter what will come, nobody can take it from you. You have your strength and courage and fierceness until the end of time.
Sending you hugs and lovely thoughts!
you can never know how your words have touched me and i thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking time out of your day to try and pick up my spirits, im just struggling so much with it all, i don't know how to feel or how to be 'normal' anymore i have had to give up so much i had my dream cake business, i was doing every kind of sport you can imagine, i was at university almost getting my degree and now all of that's gone... i just feel so alone and isolated... i used to feel so strong and have a great positive attitude when it all began but im struggling to believe in any of that anymore
@adventurousMaple8149, whatever you are feeling right now, that is valid. All emotions are correct. We like to label them "worse" and "better" or "normal", but we are complicated beings, so we experience various shades of emotions all the time, and sometimes there is just a turmoil of confusion. And that's okay.
If you feel isolated, please reach out to us. This community is full of compassionated people who will listen to your pain. Either on 1-on-1 chat, chat rooms, or forums, we will hold you up when you feel like slipping. And there is a lot of souls in here, who struggles with you and also want to be heard. If you feel up to it, you can try talking to them and quietly listening. Maybe it will ease your demons for a little while.
You don't have to feel strong, to be invincible. I don't know what's in your future. Sometimes our dreams won't ever come true and sometimes our future reality is better than our dreams. Nobody knows it and I accept it. I am often surprised in workings of Life, and I personally don't believe in fate or gods. But often I just feel tired of waiting for the better existence and try to make it for myself. One step at a time, I'm forging my future by making choices. I choose to focus on this day only. I choose to focus on my health and eat that breakfast. I choose to reach out. I choose to cry. I choose to be and fight. And sometimes that's enough. And sometimes it's not, sometimes we are all just people, miles away from each other, looking at the screens and saying: I hear you. I care. It's hard.
You don't have to feel strong, you are strong. Take a good care of yourself. All the best 
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