why I’m sad when I’m unwell

hey ppl

i woke up feeling unwell w or under mixed dream from night like what’s happening… uh, this is happening …

im so sad cuz nobody sees me

i know ppl

im always saying how this self pity doesn’t wanna leave me

but it’s true

i have always been alone when fighting mental health issues

n then this fatigue comes in or me being unwell n I can’t influence or help it

plus without ppl to talk to like not having friends it’s much harder

im in different communities n stuff I go to support rooms or sharing circles or whatever it is yk

makes me feel more seen n having those interactions but when it comes to me alone, I’m so sad that I have to feel like this in this big isolation this time

I know it’s not over but it hurts so much that I can’t get comfort from anyone but self help

”u just get lost in those thoughts about how u don't get the attention or the support that u need. and it hurts”