to stay or to grow?

this is a vent about my work/career growth.

at 27 years old, i aspire to live calmly and warmly like a candle. with little stress and pressure, little worries and failures. right now, i am grateful for i have a satisfying paying job. it is my first permanent job after being a temporary worker at previous company. i admire my job for i have the benefits to work remotely, and i got to communicate less to people, no presentations, no projects to manage. i simply work with my computer to key in data and it suits me as an introvert. i enjoy it despite the extreme working shifts hours.

nevertheless, there are voices in me that sometimes want to go out out this repetitive tasks in my job scope. i admit that i am a person that gets bored easily and i am starting to feel like that after a year and half staying. 

there are a lot of wishes or my bucket lists that i planned that requires money. for example, purchasing a car, owning a house and travelling abroad. with my current salary, they're achievable but they're gonna take years for me to save. while i am also a person who try to avoid financial risk by making loans. hence, i felt like changing jobs. 

however, i couldn't help but to feel scared. there were little to no jobs with my qualifications even if they do, their downsides fell onto similar cons like my current jobs - working on shift hours and on public holidays. i am trying to avoid that so i can have more time with my family. i know i might need to keep searching. i also feel anxious about interviews. i've been trying to fix my resumes by learning a third language but it's still on progress and thus, there's not much i can add. while i work remotely, there is not much skills or project achievements i can boast plus, i'm not sure if they will accept my salary expectation. in my searches, most of their salary budgets are below that my current place offering.

in simple word, i wanted to work stress free, remotely and less communication with people, higher salary but i am afraid there is no company that would offer this kind of job, yeah? hence, changing jobs feel challenging now.

i don't really want to climb corporate ladders, i simply wanted to hop jobs so i can demand higher salary. but ah.. what else can i do if not just being grateful for what i have right now, no? because to face the discomfort of changing seems impossible to me. and my standards are ridiculous too. for living in this temporary world, perhaps it's never wrong to stay rooted at once place? for it's where home is created. 

for you who is reading this and if you're facing the similar situation, i wish you all the best.