You are my drug
TW: written imagery relating to drugs, strong emotions
[removed] that leads into my heart, into your hatred, your suspicion, your disregard, your mockery, your deception, your injustice, your need and greed.
And it sucks it up like a straw, I drink that milkshake, and it gets me high high high.
When I'm high, on your hostility, your evil eye, your projected rejected emotions, which I accept and consume and drink from, I'm powerful. I bamboozle you, and confuse you. You frown, squint, cringe, and squirm as I show you who I am without pretense, deception, and concealed agenda.
I stand alone, in the rain, in the snow, in the desert, in the cave, on the shore, in the bush, in my room, in a car, on the pavement. Or sit. Or whatever.
And you see me, and it offends you, because your offense serves you. You need me. I am your projector screen. I'm your suspect, your fall guy. I'm your bad guy.
But you don't see me. I see you though.
Damn, the high is gone now
Edited Aug 17, 2023
@sadrobot101
Do you need support. There are a lot of listeners that can support you here
I was banned immediately after post this, so as a disclaimer, I am not referring to actual drugs/medication. I'm talking about how emotional turmoil, when it's really intense and we relax into it and feel it completely, allowing that motive energy to flow through the system, to it's destination in the heart center in the chest, it actually feels like some kind of drug high. And that that energy, when it unfolds there, in the heart, is powerful. Maybe in the case of this post, a bit too powerful.
@sadrobot101 Sorry you were banned. Are you unbanned now?
@inthequeue Yes after a few months I decided to log a request for a review on the ban, and it was restored within about a week or two.
Thanks, I hope your script you're working on works well for you.