Sorry it turned out to be a paragraph reply lol.
Well I remember once my friend was going through a really hard time, and I thought to not be all depressed and crazy and to stay happy for them and for everyone else so as to lift their spirits and since they were in a rough time, it made me realize everyone is going through their own problems, and I should be grateful that I haven’t had anything drastic like a death in the family, or something, and that I needed to stop thinking about myself so negatively.
Then I remember another occasion where I was just really lost, thinking about life and feeling like nothing really mattered. I was being all dramatic, laying on the floor staring at the ceiling while music played. Then a electronic instrumental song came on that I remembered from when I was a kid. It made me think of a time when I was really happy I guess, when I was playing Minecraft with friends and they kept messing with my creation, and I realized it’s just a game and to not take it so seriously. So I thought I shouldn’t take life so seriously. And that thinking made me happy for a while before fading again lol.
Recently I felt like I didn’t really have a dream, a motivation to get through life, so I gave myself motivation. Motivation to learn to draw better, to do 3D modeling, to maybe start a garden in the summer, stuff like that. I was going strong for a while till recently. But that’s ok. I’ll keep going, it just gets irritating going back and forth between really happy and really sad.
Ive had more thoughts, but those are the ones I remember most.