Struggling
Im having a really tough time lately. I have PTSD and dealing with flashbacks. Was severely abused as a child physically and emotionally. The emotional abuse continued until my abuser died 5 years ago. All of the things that have occurred in my life on top of that (big things) are coming to the surface. I had a therapist and it worked well for me but due to financial reasons I had to stop for a while. I’ve recently was involved in a friend group where I was just being used and finally backed off but situations there triggered things from my childhood because of a particular person manipulating then gaslighting me and I cared for that person more than I should have. I’m spiraling a bit…. Realizing the traumas that have occurred through the abuse and other traumatic experiences are compiling. Having a really hard time dealing with it. I’m redirecting my thoughts but these past couple of days redirection isn’t working. Any suggestions from others who have had similar situations would be really appreciated right now.