I completely understand I feel like I've really hit the bottom and well we both know what comes next. I have a daughter and she lives with me. I love her more than anything. She struggles with emotions alot. I won't let her know anything is wrong with me. Other than her I'm all alone. I don't have any close friends to talk with. I don't have any other family. I'm a truck driver so it's been hard.
A year ago while driving home from work I came upon an accident on the hwy. Like all of us I slowed down and was wanting to see that I didn't recognize the cars. I did. It was my mom we have lions together since her husband passed. She had been killed in the accident.
From that night I called a ex girlfriend and we got back together. Now almost a year later in a relationship that wasn't healthy the first time, yeah it's not a really good thing for someone with depression.
I just want to say that every day I try to do something, I don't always but I try, lol. Some days it's just not going out and pulling the truck in the garage cuz I did clear it out already I don't know why I'm telling you this wish I had words of wisdom to impart. But I can just tell you you're not alone! I can tell you hi everyone I'm looking for us People Like Us don't know how to find them out here in the real world and I'm grateful for this world though cuz I know I'm not alone either