Seperation depression
Going through divorce or separation can leave you feeling like there's an endless void within you, as if a part of you has died. This can make it incredibly difficult to navigate through the thousands of emotions that come with it, and each day can feel excruciatingly long.
Personally, I am currently going through a separation after being married for two years. Our marriage was rocky from the start, but I had hoped we could work things out, although I was wrong. My husband was the first person I had ever emotionally, mentally, and physically attached myself to. Even though my brain recognizes that it is probably best for both of us to end things, my heart longs to start fresh, to erase the wounds we have inflicted upon each other, and to remarry, as our best selves. Unfortunately, I know this is not feasible, as my husband cannot let go of the past or his ego. I realize that a healthy marriage cannot be conditional. After he made me leave him from the USA to my home country, I immediately started a part-time night job remotely to help myself find stability. These five hours at night are the only times I can function somewhat better,although I still have mental breakdowns during my work schedule every now and then. Going through this time is so painful and emotionally draining. I fear that I will never find love again, and the thought of being alone forever is overwhelming. I Don't know what the future holds for me. I know my husband thinks I am unworthy of him or his love and that he cannot love me for who I am. And it freaking hurts.
Divorce or separation is undoubtedly one of the most challenging life events one can experience, and it is not something that can be fully understood until it happens to you. It can lead to a deep depression that can be difficult to overcome.
