Rant
It’s been forever since I’ve posted on here but my parents are finally divorcing, with a protective order, after years of me f1ghting my dad and trying to protect my mom (he had like 100lbs on me so it was a pretty one sided whooping but oh whatever) she finally found the strength to divorce him. But now in court he is making his entire defense against the abuse allegations that I am crazy and mentally unstable and that I made the whole thing up with my mom. Even taking out my medical records (antidepr3ssants, protective wing so I didn’t sh etc…) not to mention he is 1000’s of dollars behind on child support, and literally singing to everyone at his job about how he’s screwing us over (taking my mom off the house insurance, car insurance, making her pay for life insurance she doesn’t benefit from, among other things) and he stole $400 cash from my stash that I had from working in the summer, and the key to my car. And he tries to talk to my friends and say that he’d never do any of the things he’s being “accused” of. I’m so sick of it all and I genuinely feel in my heart that I want to k1ll him, I can’t go to sleep feeling safe unless I have a pist0l on my nightstand because he’s the kind of crazy to come back here and b*rn the house down. And the craziest thing about all of this is that I think he genuinely believes there’s nothing wrong with what he’s doing
@MetalEnthusiast hi sweetie ❤❤ it's great to talk to you again🙂❤ that's a lot of crap, you've had to and still are dealing with🙁 I'm so sorry about all the money he's getting from you and your mum 😥 hopefully after the court case is done with he'll get what's coming to him, and have to pay you half of his earnings for the rest of his life. You know some people are like slinky's, fun to push down the stairs😁 this must all be mind blowing for you🙁 how are you handling it all?
@Tinywhisper11 I’m handling it, I just feel super irritable all the time, and I’m doing things that I never wanted to do to try to cope. I feel like I’m losing myself all the time. But at the same time have to act like everything’s fine because I’m supposed to be a father to my little brothers now. I can’t even cry, there’s times where I want nothing more than to cry but I physically can’t, I haven’t since like the middle of the summer
@MetalEnthusiast you've had to grow up and mature so fast, it's kinda sad how many of us have to do that🙁 there was a few years were I couldn't cry. It's not great to not be able to😥 I'm sorry sweetie. Being irritable is completely understandable. How young are your brothers??
when you feel you need to cry, don't be afraid to reach out here for help ❤ luckily we have this place, a place we can talk and be ourselves without fear of any sort of judgement. People care here ❤ I care ❤ so never feel like your alone ok?
