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MetalEnthusiast
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16, Struggling with Depression and Anxiety but what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Metal makes things better🙏🏻

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Depression Support / by MetalEnthusiast
Last post
 Thursday
...See more It’s been forever since I’ve posted on here but my parents are finally divorcing, with a protective order, after years of me f1ghting my dad and trying to protect my mom (he had like 100lbs on me so it was a pretty one sided whooping but oh whatever) she finally found the strength to divorce him. But now in court he is making his entire defense against the abuse allegations that I am crazy and mentally unstable and that I made the whole thing up with my mom. Even taking out my medical records (antidepr3ssants, protective wing so I didn’t sh etc…) not to mention he is 1000’s of dollars behind on child support, and literally singing to everyone at his job about how he’s screwing us over (taking my mom off the house insurance, car insurance, making her pay for life insurance she doesn’t benefit from, among other things) and he stole $400 cash from my stash that I had from working in the summer, and the key to my car. And he tries to talk to my friends and say that he’d never do any of the things he’s being “accused” of. I’m so sick of it all and I genuinely feel in my heart that I want to k1ll him, I can’t go to sleep feeling safe unless I have a pist0l on my nightstand because he’s the kind of crazy to come back here and b*rn the house down. And the craziest thing about all of this is that I think he genuinely believes there’s nothing wrong with what he’s doing
I can’t be with her anymore
Depression Support / by MetalEnthusiast
Last post
 April 26th
...See more I can’t be with her anymore. I’ve been losing feelings and I’ve tried to stick it out but I don’t have the energy to keep this up anymore. I’m good at acting but I’m at the end of my rope. The saddest thing is I know it’s gonna destroy her. But I also know I’m the long run that not telling her and keeping going will hurt her even worse. I feel horrible.
Medication
Depression Support / by MetalEnthusiast
Last post
 April 23rd
...See more Just had an appointment today to go get antidepressants, and they started a questionnaire and I answered them all truthfully, and the next thing I know they sent me to the psych ward and almost had me staying overnight. It was scary tbh because everything escalated so quickly. Thankfully my mom was able to convince them to let me go home, and then we got to hear my dad try to make it her fault😢 but on the bright side I got my medication and a new experience out of it.
Newbie
Newbie Hub / by MetalEnthusiast
Last post
 April 22nd
...See more I’m 16, depressed, it sucks obv but I like to find solace in outside and in music. I love metal music. And for the life of me I cannot figure out how to @ someone on this app.
Advice/Rant
Depression Support / by MetalEnthusiast
Last post
 April 22nd
...See more I had depression last year while I was in 8th grade but with support I got out of it. Now im a freshman and it’s back way worse than before. It’s mostly due to my dad. I hate him for how he treats me and my mom and my brothers. My mom has tried to leave him but he threatens to sell the house or kill himself and then she backs down. She runs an in home daycare so that would leave her out of a job and a home. He argues with her constantly because she sticks up for us and because he’s out of control, for example just the other day he sent her a screenshot of the new Beyoncé album and said if she downloaded it he would divorce her. When I stick up for her it just turns into me vs him and it’s gotten physical a couple of times, he is relatively unhealthy but still has muscle from his time in the army. I wish nothing more than him dying of a heart attack or him getting in a car crash just so we would be free. He has my 10 year old brother having suicidal/self harm thoughts. He is a 10 year old, he should not have to deal with this. I just need advice on what to do, how to fix this, because I can’t sit by and watch it happen anymore.
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