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I'm feeling really sad about Mama's passing today. Lots of crying and my heart racing. I wish I didn't have so much to do this week so I could just lay down and take a break. I feel bad that I couldn't afford a memorial service for my mom. Just the cremation, which was her wish. My Aunt who came with me to view Mama at the funeral home yesterday said she would talk to the rest of the family and see about coming up with the money to have one. Still...I would feel bad that I couldn't come up with the money.
@bestVase7265 how was your day?
P.S. My daughter made banana bread that she didn't like in her kids baking class today and she was complaining that the class is boring. It's so hard to please her. I tried to sign her up for something fun for the summer and I guess it isn't good enough. She said no to soccer and other suggestions.
Yes, I will get over being mad at myself eventually. Thanks for the advice.
Today was a long day driving back and forth to my parents (2.5 hours each way) but they enjoyed the company and the cake. They are happier than they have been in a while now that Dad is really settled into his room and won't have to move again soon. They are aging rapidly but as long as they are pretty happy, we will go with the flow.
Getting ready to jump back into teaching tomorrow.
Aww, enjoy your parents while they're here, Vase. I'm sure you do. You're a thoughtful person. I guess my endocrinologist was right. It was the Risperidone that was keeping my periods away. I just got it back yesterday after 7 months of not having it and it is terrible today. Let's just say I'm washing my pants, undies and chair cover. Sigh... I really thought it was menopause. I've had a couple hot flashes. Oh well. The pains of being a woman, huh? I'm so tired now. I think I'll keep this short tonight and say I hope you are relaxing now after that drive the other day.
Sending lots of strength and peace for the next few days. When you get it back after not having it for a while it can be really rough. I am still dealing with mine, but luckily it has calmed considerably with the IUD. But I still get it at least spotting sometimes for weeks on end. I will be so happy when it is finally done hopefully before I turn 60.
You deserve some good, solid rest though. I hope that you feel better in the morning. @SweetPea321
Thanks Vase. Yeah I hope it calms down tomorrow. 2nd and 3rd day are always the worse for me. I have stuff I want to do instead of lay around. I bought some of those big square pads for incontinence you know, but I use them for heavy flow days and I still got a little on my new sheets. I'm glad the IUD has helped you some. May yours come to an end soon.
I really didn't do much today other than print off some forms for my doctor to fill out for my internship.
It is okay to not get a lot done when you are down for the count with a cycle. Sorry about the sheets. Luckily it does wash out, but I know how hard it is. You are trying so hard to not have an accident, but you don't have control. That is just a rough feeling. But be sure to not blame yourself.
Today was an okay one for me. A therapy appointment and then teaching afterwards is usually a little rougher because I am emotionally spent. @SweetPea321
Oops! Didn't make it in time tonight. I just got out of the shower and realized that I didn't post today. I'll be back tomorrow, Vase. Pleasant dreams ⭐️🌛
I'm tired tonight. Been busy every day of the week while she's been in school. Tomorrow I have an appointment to get my driver's license. I stupidly threw the bag that had mine in it away. I go to the drive up pharmacy and sometimes they put my dl back in my bag of meds. I forgot to take it out and threw it away. Then I gotta go to the hospital to see if medical records can release to me a copy of my license so that I can send it to the school for a background check. I just wanna chill while she's in school, but I'll have that opportunity next week I guess.
How are you feeling tonight, Vase? Tell me about your day 🙂
Yes, I find it kind of annoying when they put your card and license in the bag. I am lucky that I haven't thrown mine out yet.
Sorry that I missed last night. Choir has started again and I didn't get home until late. I have had to help my son a lot more with homework lately as he finishes up his senior year projects. So my week has been a little hectic too.
But overall things are good. I am not dealing with tons of extra stressors at the moment. Tomorrow I am leading a book discussion with professors so that is a bit nerve wracking. But it is a book about trying to find ways of slowing down and having less stress. Hopefully they will teach me stuff as we talk.
I managed to make some nice tuna steaks with a vegetable coleslaw tonight for dinner. I am trying to really work towards eating less myself at the moment. Too many clothes are starting to get tight.
Hoping that things are going well for you this weekend.
Thanks Vase 🤗 Everything is going good. My head is in the clouds lately. I've been forgetting to post before you get on and then I look at the time and think oh no...too late! I've been busy around the house and out and about. I'm barely sitting in my chair now. I hope this injection does last the full 6 months like the doctor suggested. It's great to walk without pain again. My arm and shoulder still hurt, but it's slightly better since I started physical therapy.
Things are going well for me lately. The only monkey wrench that could throw off my happy machine is that social security business where I could possibly go to jail. I just painted my toes and fingernails. I'm actually taking my appearance serious again. To anyone else who may be reading this that is suffering through a long depression wave, I say to you keep trying. I went through a 2 year wave, finally found the right meds and feel better again. You can feel better again too.
I hope you're feeling good too, Vase.
Never worry about not posting. We both get busy.
I am so glad that you are feeling better and feel more confident that the uptick will last a while this time. It isn't just meds. You have worked hard to heal.
Take the social security issue a step at a time. It sounds like you aren't letting it influence you day to day and that matters.
I am doing fine right now but busy week ahead.@SweetPea321
Do you want to hear something silly, Vase? I have a crush on this young man at Hardee's 🤣 He's gotta be college age and Im 44. This one day we locked eyes for what seemed like forever, and I felt a passionate rush that I haven't felt for years. He smiled at me and I couldn't even smile back, I just felt so shy. So today when I ordered he was quiet and before I left I blurted out, "Heyy!" And then I quietly said, "You have pretty eyes." He said, "Thank you" and I drove off. I don't know what possessed me to say that to this stranger, but it just happened. Now I won't go back there for awhile. I'm gonna miss my sausage biscuit and the handsome guy lol.
Then I had my physical therapy appointment today and that went well. My therapist is also cute and muscular. I'm surrounded by handsome men lately, or maybe I'm finally noticing them. I did my hair today before going out to drop Jasmine off at school. It made me feel cute. Haven't felt cute for a long time either. Heck, I even smiled at the FedEx man when he delivered my package today 😄
It's like that Shania Twain song, Man I Feel Like A Woman.
That is wonderful. Seeing the world around you in all its forms (especially its handsome ones) is awesome. There is no harm in looking, especially when it makes you feel pretty.
I had a good, but busy day. I survived my first lunch with my supervisor that I have had in the 6 years or so that I have worked under her. I hope that I didn't say anything too stupid because she kept asking how I felt about things. @SweetPea321
She probably just respects your opinion and cares about your happiness at the job. I just got done taking care of my daughter. I had her take a shower because her bottom was itching and then I put petroleum jelly on like the doctor said. Took her in today because she's been itching for days and nothing is working to stop it. The doctor suspects pinworms but we are waiting for other test results to rule out yeast infection. I hoped to get them back and get her meds by tonight, but nope. I'm having her stay home from school tomorrow so she won't embarass herself by itching down there in public since the school called me to pick her up early today for itching.
Hopefully tomorrow is itch free. The joys of being female come in many forms.
My day was not the best as I had lots of students decide today was a good one to complain. Oh well. Tomorrow might I probably won't be on at all because I am in charge of a major campus lecture. I am crossing my fingers that the speaker does well and that everyone asks good questions. I won't breathe easily until tomorrow night.
Testing...
Why can't I post my story?
I have no idea why it is being finicky. But the little messages are something. It sounds like from your short posts that things are going pretty well.
I had a really busy day yesterday so I am a little low energy still. One of my classes has been really annoying in complaining about their grades - How dare you give me a 90%! Anyway, I will figure out a good approach eventually.
90 percent is still good though. They'll have to accept it. I do when I get a not so great grade.
I slipped my
Crush a note yesterday with my info on it
He smiled constantly kept giving me eye contact
That is so bizarre with the short messages. Do you use the phone app or do you use a computer? I find the phone app to be too buggy, but I haven't used it in years. You could try contacting tech support.
I am sorry that he hasn't gotten back in touch yet. Maybe he is a little shy or he could also be involved with someone else. Or maybe he is waiting until the next time he sees you to pass you his info. Try not to make any presumptions, especially about you. It is nice to just be able to flirt.
I am looking forward to some rest this weekend.
Oh, I do think you should go back there again, at least one more time. If there is some kind of miscommunication it could be solved. If not, what is the worst that can happen? I wouldn't go in with any agenda, just act like a regular customer. No response and you can be sure to move on. But wait just a few days.
I didn't get much rest last night so it took a while to feel rested today. But I didn't do too much besides walking, working on school stuff and replanting an orchid, so I think that I am more relaxed tonight. I am really bad with plants so the replanting was an ordeal. I have never had an orchid so I probably will kill it. When I took it out of the pot, I dumped water everywhere and my husband said something like "gardening with you is always an adventure." We both laughed.
Ok. I'll go back on Tuesday. I do like my sausage biscuit from there 😄 I'll show him that I'm not bothered by it (even though I am a little), but really I've always said that I'm perfectly fine with everybody in the world not liking me 🤷♀️
What a sweet moment with your husband, Vase 🥰 Gardening with your lover sounds romantic to me.
Tonight we're having a frozen pizza with milk. Not healthy at all! Oh well.
I am glad that you will go back. It sounds like you have a good attitude about it.
My dinner wasn't much healthier. We had some leftover ham and I made a sandwich. Actually, it really wasn't much of a dinner at all because all I ate was the sandwich and drank some water. We will go with the water as healthy and try again tomorrow. I think that I am making kimchi omelets for dinner. Kimchi is a slightly spicy Korean cabbage that I have leftover (along with tons of eggs). We will see how they turn out.
It was a quieter day except for singing at church in the morning. The rest of the day I worked on a tougher book that I have to read and did some class preparation.@SweetPea321
I'm kinda curious to see how my crush is going to react to me showing up after he declined to contact me. Crush lol 😆 I don't even remember the last time I had a crush. Maybe when I was in grade school.
My poor daughter is still itching and the school sent her home again today. I finally got her in to see her actual doctor and he said yeast infection and her urine was infected too so we got some antibiotics and cream for her. Hopefully this is it now.
I sing very quietly in church because I don't know the songs 😄 but we haven't been for awhile now because of Jasmine's ongoing health issues. First she had strep throat, then an ear infection, and now this itching.
Tonight we had fish sandwiches. My daughter didn't like it.
I am so sorry that your daughter has been so sick with such various things all month. That is no fun for either of you. I bet that the medication will really help.
It has been a little of a rougher day for me as our choir director's husband died last night after a 3 year bout with cancer. Church was tough yesterday because she was with him rather than directing us. So singing will actually be a bit harder for a while, I think.
Then I discovered that my gynecologist is no longer covered by my insurance. I finally found one that I could deal with after about a decade. Oh well.
We had the omelets which worked fine and were not too spicy. Tomorrow I will go food shopping. I may do salad and rolls for dinner.@SweetPea321
Gee, that's too bad (about the choir director's husband and your gynecologist). It's hard to feel comfortable with someone who deals with your intimate parts and then when you finally do...
So I stopped at the place this morning and it so did not go as planned. My crush said, "Good morning" and I said, "Hello heartbreaker!" It just popped out of my mouth! 🤣 And he said, "Awwww" as he closed the window. Maybe he was making fun of me to a coworker and didn't want me to hear. Then as he handed me my drink, his hand was shaky. So basically, I stressed him out or he feels uncomfortable. He didn't explain anything to me. Just was polite as usual and i frowned at him throughout the whole interaction. I didn't mean to, but i just couldn't fake a smile. He's so soft spoken and barely talks. I guess I can move on now. He doesn't like me. Oh well 🤷♀️
Then it rained today, as if the day wasn't dreary enough. I got my hep b shot and hpv vaccine today so my arms hurt.
Hopefully tomorrow is a better day.
Sorry that your conversation was more awkward than anticipated. But you are right that you can move forward now. Being able to open your eyes and see around you is a major mental health step forward. Focus on that for a bit.
There are plenty of other places that you could run into someone special. Take it a step at a time.
I hope that your daughter is feeling better now. I was a bit off physically at the beginning of the day but things felt better in the 2nd half.
Are you getting ill, Vase? Is that why you were tired? Feeling better today? Oh yes...my daughter is feeling better. Not 100 percent, but much better.
So I sent my eldest daughter's father $1800 of my student loan money to give to her to help her pay for 5 car payments and clothes because her cashapp wouldn't let me send that much due to her being a minor. I did this early in the month. Last night she hit me up for $100 because she was short on her car payment. *sigh* I asked her what happened to the $1800 and she made me promise to not talk to her Dad, but that money went to "help out the house" because apparently he was going to sell his car. I'm so ***. Not at my daughter, but at my ex for taking her money. To be honest, I'd be too scared he'd scream at me if I mentioned it. He has quite the temper. I guess I'll never do that again. I'll only give her small amounts while she's living with that pos. He can sell his car. I really didn't think he'd be THAT creepy to take his own daughter's money! I love my daughter and wanted to reward her for working and going to school. I don't pay much for child support and I wanted to help her.
Sorry about that with your daughter and the money. It does sound like smaller payments would be better to make sure that they get to her. But your money did end up keeping a roof over your daughter's head, so maybe thinking about it that way would help.
Glad that your younger daughter is feeling better.
I am fine now myself. I had a good teaching day today so that was nice. For the next two days I just have to attend lectures rather than teach myself so that will be a nice change of pace. @SweetPea321
Thanks for that advice, Vase. I'll think of it that way. Youngest daughter is still good so I think the worst is over. Finally! Nice to hear that you get a little break at your work. My daughter's favorite para came back today. Just a few days ago she was crying because Miss Molly left the school this year. So happy they were reunited. Teachers and paras make such an impact in our childrens and our lives.
I had my physical therapy for my arm and shoulder today. I wish I could just lay there for the whole appointment and have the therapist gently move my arm. It feels good, the stretches and stuff. Then I did my exercises and my arm got tired.
That sounds like a good, relaxing therapy session for the most part. Things are improving on the pain front for you which is nice.
It is so nice that Jasmine got her favorite para back. You are right about teachers making a real difference.
Today was good overall. In the morning I was at a city council meeting for about an hour. Years ago, my oldest son went Japan for a few weeks as a city ambassador. In honor of the 60th anniversary of the city partnership, the Japanese city mayor visited our city. So we were asked to go to the meeting in honor of the visit. I have never heard so much Japanese spoken. So it was an interesting start to the day. @SweetPea321
I am not sure that my life is all that interesting, but it does involve going lots of different directions that is for sure. You are now doing lots of good stuff yourself in taking that course and doing physical therapy.
I can totally get the peeing thing and how annoying it is. I don't think that my middle one stopped wetting at night until he was like 12. He definitely ruined a few mattresses. He still is a really hard sleeper. Some people can do little about that so it is hard to get mad at them.
I am glad that you are able to figure out a way to go back for your breakfast.
I will not set an alarm tomorrow so I will probably sleep until 6:30 or 7. I know that doesn't sound like much, but it will be relaxing for me. The cats aren't going to let us sleep much later. And I have to leave by 8:15 to get my youngest son to drama practice anyway.
I'll be back tomorrow, Vase. Enjoy your weekend! 😃
The time got away from me. I've been stalking this fly for over an hour. Trying to get it because it keeps buzzing my daughter and she's scared of flies. Today was a lazy day. I'm all caught up with laundry and housework so I didn't have anything to do, except bring the garbage to the curb. I'm looking forward to the week.
I went to the General Dollar store and bought some Urine Remover for the couch. It seemed to help. At least the couch doesn't smell like pee anymore. My daughter is taking to falling asleep on the couch so I have her use the bathroom at 8 before she falls asleep. My mom used to have to wake me up when I was a kid because I'd sleepwalk and get lost on my way to the bathroom.
Sounds like it was a good day. Have you tried a fly swatter? It might empower your daughter a bit. I remember living in Germany that my host dad loved his fly swatter. He would sit there at a meal with it and call out "head ache" every time that he nailed a fly on its head and killed it. @SweetPea321
I think I've eliminated the flies...for now. Trying to teach my daughter to hurry in and out the door. That's a cute little story about your host dad.
I am showered, hair washed, nails done, and I put new bedding on my bed...I feel like a new woman! I'm looking forward to my therapist appointment tomorrow. I wish Rebecca was my friend in real life. She's so nice and I enjoy talking to her. I almost wish I wasn't so well so she wouldn't wanna eventually stop our meetings as she suggested. I know...that sounds crazy 😄
The only thing is I'm starting to struggle financially a little now since my rent will be doubled starting next month. I actually questioned myself if I could go without insurance so I can have enough money for groceries. Maybe I need to go on assistance when the rent raises 🤔
How are you doing?
