Help with being alone
I have severe attachment issues.. it's causing problems for the people I care about and love but also myself.. I feel very isolated even when acknowledged. I want change and I am trying.. I have therapy once a week and I'm on medication.
I recently became more aware of my friends life, that I'm not the center of it. That's selfish, I know. I should be happy for them... so why do I feel like I'm being punished for them simply living and being happy without me involved? I hate this feeling, I don't want to feel this way.. I want them to be happy.
I feel helpless and like I need to silently deal with what I'm feeling but I end up in such a dark place...
This isn't the wrong thread at all. We can even start a conversation here if you want. It is more a long term one than one with a listener though because I only post once a day. But I very much do it every day, so this can be a great place to vent.
What you are feeling is really normal and you are doing great things to combat it with the therapy and reaching out for help.
There are tons of people feeling really lonely right now. I bet if you look hard you will find that some of your friends are actually lonely too. We are told to hide such things, but they are part of all of us. @SadGhost66
I'm still learning the app I apologize.
I have tried to find a listener but the three I connected to didn't work/never responded so I'm not sure I'm doing it right?
Listeners can sometimes be a bit hit or miss. You can try a few different ones and see if the same thing happens. They are all volunteers and some of them are learning as well.
But, I will always try to answer you here as well. How have you been doing? @SadGhost66