Feeling left behind in life
all my life have feel lonely and empty, a lot of people have told me that i ask too much of myself and that not everything needs to be perfect but I wonder why life can be horribly unfair, like why did I did wrong ? What was my mistake? When did i fail and become the way I am? I feel I’m never enough and I can’t seem to enjoy my teenage years like the rest of my friends, I don’t know why I’m so ashamed of myself I feel so sad and it scares me thinking that I’m already almost an adult and I don’t have that many “good” memories, I fell like I don’t deserve it to begin with, I feel I will be judged, I’m really stress and I don’t want to show it because my friends don’t have to deal with me being sad but I feel they are already leaving me behind, I know this type of emotions are probably occurring because of the hormonal changes one has when we are teenagers but it’s really hard, the more I think of it the more times I remember being sad and not liking what I am, and where I was, I just wonder why, I have been trying to change couple of things that maybe could help me improve the way I see my surroundings and how I feel but it’s getting worse it’s always the negative thoughts that win in my head. I’m scared that I might never be happy even if I archive my goals in life.
@moonoquq
@moonoquq
Tysm blue! Your answer really help me, I’ve already told my parents and i was supposed to go to a therapist but a couple of things happen and I’m waiting for the right time because of different circumstances, I’m now taking pills that help with anxiety I’m also taking vitamins and supplements bc I started to lose some weight. And overall I’m alright I just get paranoid at times bhaha.
but thanks a lot for taking the time ♡
@moonoquq
@moonoquq
Hi, I’m sorry to hear what you are going through right now. I’m also a teenager, and there are also people that are always telling me that I don’t need to be perfect, I don’t need to listen to what others think of you or talk about you, you should just be yourself. I get all those are good advices but I just can’t do it, maybe it is just that we didn’t experience enough, or maybe should we just accept are true self? I mean, growing up is already a huge step for us, so why not just put every bad emotions aside for now (like a week or so) and see how it would be.
@moonoquq
I think more people feel this way then you think maybe even the other teens etc that you assume are having all these amazing memories and events....
When you are comparing yourself are they based on glowing social media posts ? or stories people tell you or are you assuming they are all having great times....?
The fact is NO one is keeping score........ the only person who can see an invisible scoreboard are those who buying into everyone else is having fun.... some are because they are not trying so hard ... the best memories i share with others were not planned but just happened ...not because i was trying to create the moment.
I was talking to a friend recently and they shared on every holiday/ vacation event their partner dressed up, did their hair and had all around take fake photos......... to post about "having the BEST time ever" "so happy... making memories" type post when in fact the vacation was a bust and whole group was ill .... but this person so afraid they had to show something great .......for their friends? ....what sort of friend wants to be in your face i have more fun ...
