Feeling left behind in life
all my life have feel lonely and empty, a lot of people have told me that i ask too much of myself and that not everything needs to be perfect but I wonder why life can be horribly unfair, like why did I did wrong ? What was my mistake? When did i fail and become the way I am? I feel I’m never enough and I can’t seem to enjoy my teenage years like the rest of my friends, I don’t know why I’m so ashamed of myself I feel so sad and it scares me thinking that I’m already almost an adult and I don’t have that many “good” memories, I fell like I don’t deserve it to begin with, I feel I will be judged, I’m really stress and I don’t want to show it because my friends don’t have to deal with me being sad but I feel they are already leaving me behind, I know this type of emotions are probably occurring because of the hormonal changes one has when we are teenagers but it’s really hard, the more I think of it the more times I remember being sad and not liking what I am, and where I was, I just wonder why, I have been trying to change couple of things that maybe could help me improve the way I see my surroundings and how I feel but it’s getting worse it’s always the negative thoughts that win in my head. I’m scared that I might never be happy even if I archive my goals in life.