Everything sucks
Hey everyone.
I haven’t been doing well. More problems with my sick mom and my homeless sister. Also my apartment building is going to have to be tented for termites soon.
During my last appointment my therapist mentioned how worried she was about me because of the strain my relationship with my mom puts on me. I’ve finally had to admit how depressing the whole situation is, how alone I feel, and just how I want to lay down more and more in spite of all the stuff I have to do.
I’m still plodding along and doing my job development Zoom meetings and dealing with my thoughts of self harm when I become more overwhelmed by my possible failures and mistakes.
I bought myself an early holiday gift when I still had the money. It’s an adult coloring book full of mandalas that I try and color when I feel like I’m getting too close to the edge and want to divert my attention.
I also got more clothes because it’s time to replace some of my old stuff.
Now I’m thinking of making a bagel since it’s less work than a frozen pizza.
@integrityblues god bless you ❤ I hope the new year will be kinder to you, and that you will be ok ❤ we are all here for you, gives you a giant festive tiny hug ❤squeezes you tightly ❤ and remember, if the world didn't suck, we'd all fall off😁❤
I have been sad lately too. If you have the time sleeping is probably the best remedy I have found for depression. At least it is the least harmful of coping mechanisms. In truth it is really just avoiding the problem and in order to overcome depression you must face your sadness and accept reality the way it is. But often when depressed I am too weak to do that. Sleep can help you escape the pain, for even a few minutes. I often wake up with more strength and ready to jump back into the difficulty of life. Also listening to uplifting music, reading positive affirmations, mindfulness meditation, and watching something that makes me laugh helps me. For me adding prayer has been a life saver.
Life can be difficult. So Very difficult 😞
But something to keep in mind is this.
There was a time in your life when you were happy.
You know that is true, because otherwise you wouldn't be so upset about being sad.
Just know that life is impermanent. It is constantly changing. Good times come and Good times go. The same is true of the Bad times.
Good times will come to you again.
God loves you
We love you
Everything Will be Okay. 💗💗💗
