Depression

@JosieBiddulph yep! I do. Unfortunately that's what depression does to us🙁 have you been able to speak to a doctor about this?

That happened to me when I was in early teens. My feelings kept switching for about 15 minutes or so, that feels like forever! I cried and feel so much pain and sorrow, but the next minute, I was laughing and smiling as if I just heard something funny and/or experienced something joyful! I didn't know it was depression back then. It was scary as mental health/illness was a taboo topic to talk about in my culture back then. That was something..

It doesn’t make it any easier To know that that is normal For a healthy person growing up, But it is. It’s a confusing time, But it’s part of growing up. But it’s really a very big positive that you recognize it And on some level that you know that it doesn’t really make sense. And when you can recognize your own mood swings And say “ Hey, My body is overreacting, Nothing really has changed there hasn’t been some super sad event. Just like a no-reason headache could make me tired or grumpy, Mood swings can make me feel emotions That aren’t my real emotions… “. It helps me to think Of my body as an airplane And a real me is the pilot… my body is not my spirit, My spirit inside is who I really am And the pilot , the real me inside, doesn’t change randomly, But every day I have to fly this Airplane that flies A little bit differently every day, And sometimes differently within the day. It needs maintenance, Sometimes I lose an engine, Sometimes I’m nearly out of gas, Different warning lights come on, Different systems fail. If somebody asks how I’m doing On a day like you said you were having I will say “ Well, I’m doing Good overall, It’s just my body that’s not doing good today”. Somehow, that helps me conquer my body instead of being a slave to it.

So sorry to say but those are symptoms of depression. I go through it everyday and it’s always the same. All we could do is learn to observe and navigate these ill experiences.

I think you're at the point where you need to talk to a doctor about it

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@JosieBiddulph You're not alone in this many of us deal with those quick mood shifts, and they can often be tied to anxiety, stress, or even underlying factors we’re still trying to understand.

Something that helped me was exploring ways to stabilize my emotions, like mindfulness exercises or journaling to track triggers. I also shared a lot about my own journey with emotional struggles in my book, The Silence. It’s a personal take on managing anxiety and finding inner balance. If you ever want to check it out, I hope it offers some support. Remember, you’re not alone in feeling this way, and it’s okay to reach out.